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May 22, 2015


I will be able to start writing on my online journal again. Life is getting better for me all the time since I left the Christian Right and White Nationalists. I am healing. I have a future. I hope if you who are still trapped there read my blog, that you also will leave and embrace a better life and future.

I am Wicca. I buried my Bible because it is Wicca that is more healing to my soul. If the Christian Jesus hears your prayers great. He never heard my prayers for help and salvation. The Green Man loves me and protects. I worship the Horned God.

Love and blessing to all

Love this song. Still waiting for my Mate, who can accept this witch and not want to dam me to hell for being a witch,lol.

Been taken again

December 30, 2014


Taken over the Christmas Holiday. This is my grand nephew John. He is such a sweet baby.

Am in Denver waiting for the flight back to KS. Long wait. It has been a real cluster the last couple of days.

Found out today that the person I let house sit because she needed a place to stay, and I like to trust and help people sold my sofa and spent the money on herself. I don’t know what I am going to find when I get home.

Just because people use and steal from me, doesn’t mean I forget they are human beings. How we treat others comes back to us 3 fold. There will not be any trust or help in the future.

Once I have health insurance again I plan to continue on with the therapy I started in AZ. I worked through anger and now I am going to have to deal with standing up for myself against those who prove by their actions they do not treat me with the same kindness, honesty, and true friendship.

2015 is coming soon and this person will not have my help and support, that she would have had, if she hadn’t taken advantage of my big loving heart.

It is what it is.

Been a great Christmas

December 27, 2014


Leave Monday night to go back to KS.

Have enjoyed time with family. Love John, my great nephew. He is so handsome and a good baby.

Miss my Benji, but will pick him up Wed morning.

Sitting outside and getting ready to go back in the pool.

Happy new year and may 2015 be a year of love and peace.

Am on my way to Hawaii for family Christmas

December 19, 2014


This was taken a couple of weeks ago.

It has been a crazy couple of days so I will be glad to reach Hawaii. Met a nice woman on the plane from KS to Denver and we exchanged phone numbers. She is vegetarian and I am slowly becoming one. I can actually talk politics with her and I am not talking over her head and we share a Green vision for the future of the world.

I am excited about meeting John (Jack).

Being I lost my wallet and don’t have my my Id it is fun flying, lol. Just hope I can get home without it, when I leave Hawaii after Christmas.

Will post like last year about my trip.

All moved in

November 18, 2014


I feel like I am drowning, lol

November 3, 2014


Still struggling and hoping for a lucky break, for once in my miserable life, lol. I have a dry British humor that many Americans do not understand.

Hope everyone is having a great Samhain weekend. Mine is quiet and reflective. Need to get settled somewhere that I can put down roots. I want to continue making progress in reaching a point of healing in body, mind, and spirit. Loosing 55 pounds was very positive and I want to continue on that path.

Sweet dreams

All moved

October 28, 2014


All out of Tescott and waiting for the new place.

I came to Tescott to heal as it was in the country and near the trails, I reached that goal so now I can move on to the next goal in my healing. Each year I have made progress.

Hope everyone has a nice Samhain.

The Tower Card, lol

October 18, 2014


I really like this picture as it fits my life style right now. Living in motel 6 because I was forced to move from Tescott. Bedbugs!

Found a new place but can’t move in yet. I am going to give apt living one more chance.

Once I get settled I can get back to focusing on my plan to become a climate reality leader. I need volunteer experience so I want to work on that for the next year. I have believed in the work of the Land institute for years.

Plus I wants to loose another 25 pounds.

The tower card brings quick and sudden change. While it might hurt at the time, the lessons it teaches us help us to overcome and become better people and the best we can be. I always strive to overcome and hate to quit, lol.

Hope everyone has a great Samhain.

Kansas City is going to the World Series. Cool!

Back from MN

September 30, 2014


I am getting in the mood for Samhain.

Love this time of year.

I am very happy with the progress I have made the past year. Finally came to peace with people I needed to. Now I am moving into the new year and will continue to make progress and come to terms with others, like my dad. I am working through the process started in AZ.

If someone can’t see or value me as a person or wants a real friendship of both of us being a true friend to each other, then I accept it was not a true friendship and just an illusion on my part, as one sided friendship is not real friendship.

Thank you to those false friends, as now I can embrace the true people who want me in their lives.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Going to MN tomorrow

September 20, 2014

Watching the movie now on tv as I pack for tomorrow. I know that I am in a much better place now, as I cleaned out the toxic people. It is sad that some people get jealous of your success. Yes, I lost 55 pounds this Summer.

We had our first DAR meeting for the year. In my chapter there were 4 of us who lost a combined weight of 200 pounds. We are striving to become the healthy chapter, lol.

Found out that the local Salina SAR chapter disbanded, which I think is sad, as I was hoping to work a joint project. Not giving up as I think it is important.

Went to a funeral today.

Ginny wants me to drive her to a clinic in MN and I said I would. Hope she finds out why she is feeling ill.

Happy Fall.

Most likely will miss my Scottish Games this year,but Ginny is more important to me.


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