I read an article today that made me think of my own father and him ordering me to kill my child or else. It wasn’t good enough that I was wanting to have my child and give them up for adoption. To save a family name one must do what is told and not feel or release your true feelings. It isn’t healthy to hold on to feelings, so I release them now.
I will be in Boston before you know it to put flowers on my dad’s grave. I want to resolve all my feelings for him, before I go to Boston and come to peace with my past.
I want to love Boston again. When my dad was alive it was my safe place.
This is to my dad.