I haven’t been active on here for a long time. I am fighting some health issues. and my body is fighting me. about a month ago I was told I was diabetic and I am having to deal with reducing my sugar levels and my body is fighting because they don’t like the lower levels and so it reacts. Plus I have been on perscribed pain pills like oxycodone that is an opiate, that makes you addicted and you become a drug addict that needs the drug to keep nomral so you don’t go through withdrawals.
I had overcome my addiction to pot, but back in 2002 when I went to a doctor for pain in my neck and shoulder he told me I had fibro and gave me pain pills. For years the doctors told me I had fibro and it was one opiate drug after another as my body got used to the one they gave me. In 2010 the primary doctor ordered tests and an mri and found valid reasons for the pain in my neck and shoulder and said the pain wasn’t in my mind and I didn’t have fibro. My shoulder and neck doctor plus my PT person are pissed that for so many years they just let the real cause go and gave me opiates for pain.
I am a drug addict, just as much as a drug addict as someone who uses street drugs. If we don’t have the drug in our system we get sick and believe me withdrawals are not fun. I made the choice to get off the oxycodone. It wasn’t the pain management doctor. If I hadn’t made the choice I would still be on them and getting a refell for oxycodone 15 mg 3 times a day. Now on Wed, when I go again we will work out a treatment plan with no opiates as I want to get off the opiate merry go round.
The forum that I published is a really go forum. I found it today and they have encouraged me to stop and are praying for and with me to overcome, as I pray for them. I wish there was an NA closer to me. but having the forum is good and when I am feeling better I will make and effort to go to an NA meeting.
It is all to common to deny our addictions. I always say to my self that there is life after ———————. You feel in the blank of your addictions and mistakes you have made in life. We must believe in second chances and even third chances if that is what it takes to get off the drugs.
I have always been open and I continue to be honest and open and say I am going through withdrawals as I stopped taking the oxycodone today. I have been given some rx to help through the withdrawals. I will keep people informed as to the progress and the struggles on my blog, with the hopes that it will help and encourage other drug addicts to get clean. We can do it. We must do it, if we want to live and move forward in life without chained to the drug of choice.
Now everyone know on my blog, facebook and the forum that is helping me to get clean. If I am not public about my addiction and struggle to get clean then maybe because of me not talking about solutions, someone didn’t get help in time and died. I don’t want anyone more to die because of drug addiction. We must overcome and accept the changes we can make which take courage to say I can make the decision to get clean.
I ask Catholics and Christians to pray for me and my journey find stay clean.
Love and Blessings