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Murder Witness: Killer Raped Me

June 5, 2008

Posted on Thu, May. 22, 2008

Murder witness: Killer raped me

By KITTY CAPARELLA
Philadelphia Daily News
caparek@phillynews.com
215-854-5880

An ex-girlfriend testified yesterday that skinhead Thomas Gibison discussed “numerous times” that he had killed a black man in Philadelphia to earn a spider-web tattoo.
Gibison “said he would never forget the slapping sound of the guy’s head hitting the ground,” testified the 39-year-old Newark, Del., woman. After the killing, she said, Gibison and a pal “melted the weapon down.”

In tears, the ex-girlfriend testified she feared Gibison would kill her if she revealed the slaying.

Not until she suffered Gibison’s hours-long torture six years after the 1989 killing while two friends “watched and wouldn’t help” did she realize her onetime beau cared for no one.

The woman testified that Gibison nearly strangled her and raped her with objects while she was handcuffed for hours. He also made her watch while he shot and bashed her pit bull to death with a baseball bat. Because of the alleged assault, the Daily News is withholding her name.

Yesterday was the second day of an expected weeklong murder trial for Gibison, 38, of Newark, Del., before Common Pleas Judge M. Teresa Sarmina.

In the last trial of his 35-year career as an assistant district attorney, Roger King is prosecuting Gibison on charges of murder, criminal conspiracy, ethnic intimidation and weapon offenses in the April 16, 1989, killing of Aaron Wood in North Philadelphia.

The ex-girlfriend’s dramatic, sobbing testimony before Common Pleas Judge M. Teresa Sarmina opened a window into the sick, sadistic world of the Nazi-loving, race-hating skinhead covered with racist tattoos, which jurors could not see on the defendant, but were able to see them in photos or hear about them in testimony.

When she took the witness stand, her lips quivered at the mention of Gibison’s name. As King gently questioned the woman, tears flowed while she recalled the nightmare of Gibison’s torture, which was provoked by her dating someone else.

“He beat me in my head, with his fist, anywhere he could reach. I was running around a table, whatever he could reach,” he tried to punch, she said.

“He said he was going to kill me,” she testified. “He had my neck in his hands, my neck was over the dryer and he was going to snap my neck.

“His grandfather came in and saved my life,” she added.

Sobbing, the woman testified about an unspeakable rape with objects later the same night that lasted an estimated six hours.

“He made me strip and handcuffed me. He raped me” in two ways, she said, wiping away tears. “I was screaming and crying for him to stop. He told me if I ever told police, he would kill me.”

The next day, on Nov. 19, 1995, her mother took her to Christiana Hospital in Newark, where she was treated and released for cuts and bruises of her swollen face and body.

At the hospital, she testified, she claimed that she had gotten into a fight with another girl and refused to file a police report.

“If they found out my boyfriend beat me, [Gibison] would come after me,” she added.

Richard Iardella, a retired detective with the Wilmington Police Department, testified earlier that the woman’s ex-husband contacted him about the beating.

When the detective approached the ex-girlfriend, she began to open up because: “My conscience bothered me.

“I told him about the spider-web tattoo. I told him that Tom had committed a murder. At the time, I was more concerned about my rape, than the murder,” she testified.

After she recovered, the woman said she spoke frequently to Iardella. She testified she told him that Tom “wanted to get a red teardrop in his spider-web tattoo – one [teardrop] for each person killed.” Gibison and co-conspirator Craig Peterson “were talking about how they were going to get them,” she added.

At that time, Gibison “belonged to the Ku Klux Klan,” she said. But while the couple was together, she added, she did not know of Gibison’s affiliations, other than dressing like other skinheads and attended their events.

With the skinheads, he and his pals wore bomber jackets, shaved their heads, wore racist tattoos and T-shirts and listened to skinhead music, she said.

Shown a photo of Gibison, which was obtained by her parents, the ex-girlfriend testified, “It’s a picture of Tom, all pumped up, showing me his tattoo on his tummy.”

The tattoo shows a skull and a man holding a gun, with the words: “What goes around, comes around.” *

Sexual Assault and Rape by US Military in Japan Lead to a Major International Incident

May 23, 2008

Published on Friday, May 23, 2008 by CommonDreams.org

When Rape Hobbles Bush Administration Policies

Sexual Assault and Rape by US Military in Japan Lead to a Major International Incident

by Ann Wright

One would hope that behavior that requires the “regrets” of the President of the United States and the Secretary of State and the stand down of United States military forces for “reflection” and retraining in ethics and leadership would be punished severely enough to send a clear signal that the behavior will not be tolerated.

Yet the history of sexual assault and rape of women around U.S. military bases, particularly in Okinawa, reveals a military institutional acceptance of this criminal behavior and the lack of enforcement of military regulations against such behavior by senior military officers.

Many in Okinawa and in the United States are watching the U.S. military’s response to the latest rapes and sexual assaults to see if this pattern will change.

Since 1945 when US military stormed onto the island of Okinawa to dislodge Japanese military in World War II, Okinawan women and girls have been sexually assaulted and raped by U.S. military personnel. The Okinawans know the history of every assault. 30 women were raped in 1945, 40 in 1946, 37 in 1947 and the count goes on year after year. The first conviction of a US military soldier for rape was in 1948.

During my recent trip to Japan, I met with members of the organization Okinawan Women Act Against Military Violence. According to reports compiled from police records and other sources by that organization, hundreds of Okinawan and Japanese women have been sexually assaulted and raped by US military since 1945.

In the latest series of incidents, in April, 2008, the U.S. military in Japan charged a Marine with rape and other violations of the Uniform Code of Military Justice in the alleged sexual assault of 14-year old girl in Okinawa. U.S. Marine Staff Sergeant Tyrone Hadnott, 38, who had been in the Marines 18 years, was charged with the February 10, 2008, rape of a child under 16, abusive sexual contact with a child, making a false official statement, adultery and kidnapping. In February, Japanese authorities had released Hadnott after the girl dropped the allegations against him, but the Marine Corps conducted its own investigation to see if Hadnott violated codes of military justice.

The rape accusation against Hadnott stirred memories of a brutal rape more than a decade ago and triggered outrage across Japan. Japanese Prime Minister Yasuo Fukuda said that Hadnott’s actions were “unforgivable.”

The February 11, 2008 arrest of Hadnott by Okinawan police on suspicion of raping a 14-year-old girl he picked up on a motorcycle outside an ice cream parlor in Okinawa City on February 10, triggered an international incident.

The same day, on February 11, Okinawa Governor Hirokazu Nakaima and Japanese Foreign Minister Masahiko Komura lodged protests with the United States government.

On February 12, Okinawa police recommended a charge of rape to the Okinawa Public Prosecutors Office and hundreds of Okinawans staged protests at the headquarters gate to Camp Foster, Japan.

Japanese Defense Minister Shigeru Ishiba expressed concern the alleged rape could affect the planned realignment of U.S. troops in Japan.

On February 13, Lieutenant General Wright, commander of all US military forces in Japan, U.S. Ambassador to Japan Thomas Schieffer and Lt. Gen. Richard Zilmer, commander of U.S. Marines in Japan, met with Okinawa Governor Nakaima to express their concern. They promised steps will be taken to prevent future incidents.

On February 28, on an official visit to Japan, Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice also expressed her regrets to Japanese Prime Minister Yasuo Fukuda and Foreign Minister Mashiko Komura. “I earlier had had a chance to express the regret to the prime minister on behalf of President (George W.) Bush, on behalf of myself and the people of the United States for the terrible incident that happened in Okinawa,” Rice said at a joint news conference held after she spoke with Foreign Minister Masahiko Komura. “We are concerned for the well-being of the young girl and her family.”

In a press conference with Komura, Rice said the United States will try to prevent such incidents from recurring and said the U.S. Forces in Japan and the U.S. Embassy would be reinforcing military discipline. Rice also said that Okinawa is “extremely important” for the security of the Asia-Pacific region and it is important for the U.S. and Japan to go ahead with the U.S. forces reorganization.

Rice did not mention publicly the Bush administration’s push for Japanese participation in the Iraq war by providing more refueling ships and logistics aircraft, which has sparked outrage in the Japanese public as it violates the renunciation of war Article 9 of their constitution.

Lt. General Zilmer, commander of U.S. Marines in Japan, ordered a two-day stand-down for all Marines in Japan for “ethics and leadership” training. The incident also led to tight restrictions, for a time, for American troops and their families at the U.S. base on Okinawa. The U.S. military in Japan also formed a sexual assault prevention task force after the incident.

On May 15, 2008, a U.S. military court-martial sentenced Hadnott to four years in prison, with one year suspended, after convicting him of abusive sexual conduct with a Japanese teenager in Okinawa. Four other charges, including rape of a child under 16, making a false official statement, adultery and “kidnapping through inveigling,” or trickery, were dropped in a plea bargain.

When asked specifically by a Japanese news reporter, a U.S. Marine public affairs officer stated that Hadnott’s name has been placed on the U.S. National Sex Offenders list, yet the Stars and Stripes military newspaper reports that Hadnott will have to place himself on the sex offenders registry after he completes his 36-month jail sentence.

On May 16, 2008, charges were dropped against a soldier accused of raping a 21 year-old Filipino woman in February 18, 2008. The Naha, Okinawa, District Public Prosecutor said his office did not have sufficient evidence to indict Sergeant Ronald Edward Hopstock Jr., 25, of the 1st Battalion, 1st Air Defense Artillery Regiment, a U.S. Army Patriot missile battery on the U.S. Air Force’s Kadena Air Base, Okinawa.

According to police, after the incident, the woman was hospitalized for more than a week and received outpatient treatment for two weeks. At the time of the incident, the woman had been in Japan only three days, police reports said. Hopstock remains restricted to Kadena Air Base and is closely supervised by officials.

However, like the U.S. Marines in the Hadnott case, the U.S. Army said it will conduct its own investigation, according to Major James Crawford, a U.S. Army spokesman at Camp Zama, Japan.

On May 9, 2008, U.S. Marine Lance Corporal Larry Dean, 20, was convicted of “wrongful sexual contact and indecent acts” in the gang rape of a 19-year-old woman in Hiroshima, Japan in October, 2007, and sentenced no more than one year in jail and a dishonorable discharge. He was also convicted of “fraternization and violating military orders about liberty and alcohol” but cleared of rape and kidnapping charges. Three other Marines will be court-martialed later in May, 2008 on charges of gang-raping the young woman.

In another incident, in early May, 2008, another young 14-year-old Japanese girl reportedly was assaulted by a U.S. military service member. The case is under investigation by both Japanese and U.S. military police.

In the 1995 case that is referenced by virtually every Okinawan one speaks with, three American servicemen kidnapped and gang-raped a 12-year-old Okinawan schoolgirl. In August 2006, one of the perpetrators of the 1995 rape, strangled and raped a 22-year-old female college student in Georgia, after which he killed himself.

In 2002, Marine Major Michael Brown was charged with attempting to rape a Filipina bartender at a club on a U.S. military base. Following a 19-month trial, on July 8, 2004, Brown was convicted by the Japanese District Court of “attempting an indecent act” and “destruction of property” but was acquitted of the rape charge. The court gave Brown a one-year prison sentence, suspended him for three years, and fined him US$1,400. The Japanese Judge said Brown was given a light sentence because the 21-year Marine veteran had no prior criminal record. Brown appealed the verdict to Japan’s Supreme Court which dismissed the appeal in July 2004. Brown was transferred by the U.S. military to Marine Corps Base Quantico, Virginia in August 2004.

In October, 2005, Brown was arrested and charged with kidnapping an 18-year-old girl from a flea-market in Milton, West Virginia. Brown was subsequently indicted in January, 2006 on felony kidnapping and grand larceny charges and, as of May, 2008, currently awaits trial scheduled to take place in Huntington, West Virginia. In the meantime, the U.S. Marine Corps demoted Brown to Captain and allowed him to retire at that rank on February 1, 2006.

In 2006, a U.S. civilian employed by the U.S. military employee was jailed for nine years for raping two women on Okinawa.

While the vast majority of US military personnel do not commit criminal acts while in Japan, the continued presence after 60 years of such a large number of US military, and the horrific crimes committed by a small minority of U.S. military, mean that America’s military presence in Japan and Okinawa is deeply resented and many Japanese call for the removal of U.S. bases in Japan.

Sexual assault and rape of women in countries where U.S. military forces are stationed must be stopped, as must the rape of 1 in 3 women in the US military who are raped by their fellow military service members.

Ann Wright is a retired US Army Reserves Colonel with 29 years of military service. She also was a US diplomat who served in Nicaragua, Grenada, Somalia, Uzbekistan, Kyrgyzstan, Sierra Leone, Micronesia and Mongolia. She was on the small team that reopened the US Embassy in Kabul, Afghanistan in December, 2001. She resigned from the US diplomatic corps in March, 2003 in opposition to the Bush administration’s decision to invade and occupy Iraq. She is the co-author of “Dissent: Voices of Conscience,” profiles of government insiders who have spoken and acted on their concerns of their governments’ policies.

Is There an Army Cover Up of Rape and Murder of Women Soldiers?

April 28, 2008

Published on Monday, April 28, 2008 by CommonDreams.org

Is There an Army Cover Up of Rape and Murder of Women Soldiers?

by Ann Wright

The Department of Defense statistics are alarming — one in three women who join the US military will be sexually assaulted or raped by men in the military. The warnings to women should begin above the doors of the military recruiting stations, as that is where assaults on women in the military begins — before they are even recruited.

But, now, even more alarming, are deaths of women soldiers in Iraq, and in the United States, following rape. The military has characterized each of the deaths of women who were first sexually assaulted as deaths from “non-combat related injuries,” and then added “suicide.” Yet, the families of the women whom the military has declared to have committed suicide, strongly dispute the findings and are calling for further investigations into the deaths of their daughters. Specific US Army units and certain US military bases in Iraq have an inordinate number of women soldiers who have died of “non-combat related injuries,” with several identified as “suicides.”

94 US military women in the military have died in Iraq or during Operation Iraqi Freedom (OIF). 12 US Civilian women have been killed in OIF. 13 US military women have been killed in Afghanistan during Operation Enduring Freedom (OEF). 12 US Civilian women have been killed in Afghanistan.

Of the 94 US military women who died in Iraq or in OIF, the military says 36 died from non-combat related injuries, which included vehicle accidents, illness, death by “natural causes,” and self-inflicted gunshot wounds, or suicide. The military has declared the deaths of the Navy women in Bahrain that were killed by a third sailor, as homicides. 5 deaths have been labeled as suicides, but 15 more deaths occurred under extremely suspicious circumstances.

8 women soldiers from Fort Hood, Texas (six from the Fourth Infantry Division and two from the 1st Armored Cavalry Division) have died of “non-combat related injuries” on the same base, Camp Taji, and three were raped before their deaths. Two were raped immediately before their deaths and another raped prior to arriving in Iraq. Two military women have died of suspicious “non-combat related injuries” on Balad base, and one was raped before she died. Four deaths have been classified as “suicides.”

19-year-old US Army Private Lavena Johnson, was found dead on the military base in Balad, Iraq in July, 2005 and her death characterized by the US Army to be suicide as a self-inflicted M-16 shot. On April 9, 2008, Dr. John Johnson and his wife Linda, parents of Private Johnson, flew from their home in St. Louis for meetings with US Congress members and their staffs. They were in Washington to ask that Congressional hearings be conducted on the Army’s investigation into the death of their daughter, an investigation that classified her death as a suicide despite extensive evidence suggesting she was murdered.

From the day their daughter’s body was returned to them, the parents had grave suspicions about the Army’s investigation into Lavena’s death and the characterization of her death as suicide. In charge of a communications facility, Lavena was able to call home daily. In those calls she gave no indication of emotional problems or being upset. In a letter to her parents, Lavena’s commanding officer Captain David Woods wrote : “Lavena was clearly happy and seemed in very good health both physically and emotionally.”

In viewing his daughter’s body at the funeral home, Dr. Johnson was concerned about the bruising on her face. He was puzzled by the discrepancy in the autopsy report on the location of the gunshot wound. As a US Army veteran and a 25-year US Army civilian employee who had counseled veterans, he was mystified how the exit wound of an M-16 shot could be so small. The hole in Lavena’s head appeared to be more the size of a pistol shot rather than an M-16 round. He questioned why the exit hole was on the left side of her head, when she was right handed. But the gluing of military uniform white gloves onto Lavena’s hands hiding burns on one of her hands is what deepened Dr. Johnson’s concerns that the Army’s investigation into the death of his daughter was flawed.

Over the next two and one-half years, Dr. and Mrs. Johnson, and their family and friends relentlessly through the Freedom of Information Act and Congressional offices requested the Department of the Army for documents concerning Lavena’s death. With each response of the Army to the request for information another piece of information/evidence about Lavena’s death emerged.

The military criminal investigator’s initial drawing of the death scene revealed that Lavena’s M16 was found perfectly parallel to her body. The investigator’s sketch showed that her body was found inside a burning tent, under a wooden bench with an aerosol can nearby. A witness stated that he heard a gunshot and when he came to investigate found a tent on fire and when he looked into the tent saw a body. The Army official investigation did not mention a fire nor that her body had been burned.

After two years of requesting documents, one set of papers provided by the Army included a xerox copy of a CD. Wondering why the xerox copy was in the documents, Dr. Johnson requested the CD itself. With help from his local Congressional representative, the US Army finally complied. When Dr. Johnson viewed the CD, he was shocked to see photographs taken by Army investigators of his daughter’s body as it lay where her body had been found, as well as other photographs of her disrobed body taken during the investigation.

The photographs revealed that Lavena, a small woman, barely 5 feet tall and weighing less than 100 pounds, had been struck in the face with a blunt instrument, perhaps a weapon stock. Her nose was broken and her teeth knocked backwards. One elbow was distended. The back of her clothes had debris on them indicating she had been dragged from one location to another. The photographs of her disrobed body showed bruises, scratch marks and teeth imprints on the upper part of her body. The right side of her back as well as her right hand had been burned apparently from a flammable liquid poured on her and then lighted. The photographs of her genital area revealed massive bruising and lacerations. A corrosive liquid had been poured into her genital area, probably to destroy DNA evidence of sexual assault.

Despite the bruises, scratches, teeth imprints and burns on her body, Lavena was found completely dressed in the burning tent. There was a blood trail from outside a contractor’s tent to inside the tent. She apparently had been dressed after the attack and her attacker placed her body into the tent and set it on fire.

Investigator records reveal that members of her unit said Lavena told them she was going jogging with friends on the other side of the base. One unit member walked with her to the Post Exchange where she bought a soda and then, in her Army workout clothes, went on by herself to meet friends and get exercise. The unit member said she was in good spirits with no indication of personal emotional problems.

The Army investigators initially assumed Private Johnson’s death was a homicide and indicated that on their paperwork. However, shortly into the investigation, a decision apparently was made by higher officials that the investigators must stop the investigation into a homicide and to classify her death a suicide.

As a result, no further investigation took place into a possible homicide despite strong evidence available to the investigators.

Another family that does not believe their daughter committed suicide in Iraq is the family of Army Private First Class Tina Priest, 20, of Smithville, Texas, who was raped by a fellow soldier in February, 2006 on a military base known as Camp Taji. Priest was a part of the 5th Support Battalion, lst Brigade Combat Team, 4th Infantry Division, Fort Hood, Texas. The Army said Tina was found dead in her room on March 1, 2006, of a self-inflicted M-16 shot, a “suicide”, 11 days after the rape. Private Priest’s mother, Joy Priest, disputes the Army’s findings. Mrs. Priest said she talked several times with her daughter after the rape, and while very upset about the rape, she was not suicidal. Priest continues to challenge the Army’s 800 pages of investigative documents with a simple question. How could her petite daughter, 5-foot-tall daughter with a short arm length, have held the M-16 at the angle which would have resulted in the gunshot? The Army attempted several attempts explanations, but each was debunked by Mrs. Priest and by the 800 pages of materials provided by the Army itself. The Army now says Tina used her toe to pull the trigger of the weapon that killed her. The Army never investigated Tina’s death as a homicide, but only as a suicide.

Rape charges against the soldier whose sperm was found on her sleeping bag were dropped a few weeks after her death. He was convicted of failure to obey an order and sentenced to forfeiture of $714 for 2 months, 30 days restriction to the base and 45 days of extra duty.

On the same Camp Taji, 10 days later after Tina Priest was found dead, on May 11, 2006, woman US Army Private First Class (name known to author, but not identified for the article), 19, was found dead. She died three days after she suffered what the Army called “a self-inflicted gunshot”. The Army claimed that she too had committed suicide. In her room where her body was found, investigators discovered her diary open to a page on which she had written about being raped during training after unknowingly drinking a date rape drug. The person identified in the diary as the rapist was charged by the Army with rape after her death. Many who knew her did not believe she shot herself, but there is no evidence of a homicide investigation by the Army.

The September 4, 2006 death at Camp Taji of Private First Class Hannah Gunterman McKinney, 20, of the 44th Corps Support Battalion, Ft. Lewis, WA was investigated and rather than having been run over by a military vehicle as she crossed a road from a guard tower to the latrine as initially claimed by the Army, she fell or was pushed from and run over by a vehicle driven by a drunk Sergeant from her unit who had first sexually assaulted her. The Sergeant pleaded guilty to drinking in a war zone, drunken driving and consensual sodomy with an underage, incapacitated junior soldier to whom he had supplied alcohol. A military judge ruled that McKinney’s death was an accident and the Sergeant was sentenced to 13 months imprisonment, demotion to private, but he would not be discharged from the Army.

Other suspicious “non-combat related injury” deaths on Camp Taji include Fort Hood’s 1st Armored Cavalry Division PFC Melissa J. Hobart who died June 6, 2004, 1st Armored Cavalry Sergeant Jeannette Dunn who died November 26, 2006), 89th Military Police Brigade Specialist Kamisha J. Block (who died August, 2007), 4th Infantry Division Specialist Marisol Heredia who died September 7, 2007) and 4th Infantry Division Specialist Keisha M. Morgan who died February, 22, 2008. None of the deaths have been classified as suicides, but the circumstances of their deaths should be investigated further because of serious questions concerning their deaths.

The US Army has classified the deaths of four other women as suicides. In the space of three months in 2006, three members of the U.S. Army who had been part of a logistics group in Kuwait committed suicide. Two of them were women. In August 2006, Lt. Col. Marshall Gutierrez, was arrested at a restaurant in Kuwait and was accused of shaking down a laundry contractor for a $3,400 bribe. He was allowed to return to his quarters and found dead on September 4, 2006 with an empty bottle of prescription sleeping pills an open container of what appeared to be antifreeze.

Major Gloria D. Davis, 47, assigned to the Defense Security Assistance Agency which handles the sales of military equipment to other countries, reportedly committed suicide in Baghdad on December 12, 2006, the day after she allegedly admitted to an Army investigator that she had accepted at least $225,000 in bribes from Lee Dynamics, a US Army contractor, that reportedly bribed officers for work in Iraq. Major Davis had a daughter, son and granddaughter. She had worked as a police officer, was a volunteer at women’s shelters and helped get disadvantaged African-American students into ROTC programs.

New York Army National Guard Sergeant Denise A. Lannaman, 46, assigned to a desk job at a procurement office in Camp Arifjan, Kuwait that purchased millions of dollars in supplies. She received excellent performance ratings, her supervisor citing that her oversight eliminated misuse of funds by 36 percent. On October 1, 2006, Lannaman was questioned by a senior officer about the death of Lt. Col. Gutierrez and reportedly told by that officer that she would be leaving the military in disgrace. She was found in a jeep dead of a gunshot wound later in the day. While her family said that she had attempted suicide four different times in her life, the Army has not ruled on the cause of death of Lannaman.

US Army interrogator Specialist Alyssa Renee Peterson, 27, assigned to C Company, 311th Military Intelligence Battalion, 101st Airborne Division, Ft. Campbell, KY, was an Arabic linguist who reportedly was very concerned about the manner in which interrogations were being conducted. She died on September 15, 2003 near Tal Afar, Iraq in what the Army described as a gunshot wound to the head, a non-combat, self-inflicted weapons discharge, or suicide. Peterson reportedly objected to the interrogation techniques used on prisoners and refused to participate after only two nights working in the unit known as the cage. Members of her unit have refused to describe the interrogation techniques Peterson objected to. The military says that all records of those techniques have now been destroyed. After refusing to conduct more interrogations, Peterson was assigned to guard the base gate, where she monitored Iraqi guards. She was also sent to suicide prevention training. On the night of September 15th, 2003, Army investigators concluded she shot and killed herself with her service rifle. Family members challenge the Army’s conclusion.

US Army Sergeant Melissa Valles, 26, assigned to Headquarters Detachment, Company B, 64th Forward Support Battalion, 3rd Brigade Combat Team, Fort Carson, CO, died on July 9, 2003, in Balad from a two non-combat gunshot wounds to her abdomen. The Army has not ruled whether her death was a suicide or a homicide. But Valles’ family stated that although small in stature at 5 foot 3, she was a tough person. “She really put people in their place. She did that since she was a girl. She would put little boys who were bullies in their place.” The family does not believe Valles committed suicide.

One suspicious non-combat death of a military woman occurred in Afghanistan.

On September 28, 2007, Massachusetts Army National Guard Specialist Ciara Durkin, 30, a finance specialist, was found lying near a church on the very secure Bagram Air Base, Afghanistan, with a single gunshot wound to her head. She had recently told her relatives to press for answers if anything happened to her while she was deployed in Afghanistan. When she was home three weeks prior to her death, she told her sister about something she had come across that raised some concern with her and that she had made some enemies because of it. Members of her family also questioned whether the fact that she was gay played a role in her death. They believe Ciara was killed by a fellow service member, intentionally or accidentally, and they are confident that she did not commit suicide.

In Bahrain, On January 16, 2007, US Navy Petty Officer 1st Class Jennifer A. Valdivia, 27, assigned to the naval security force for Naval Support Activity, Bahrain, was found dead 3 days after she was to report for duty on January 14. The Naval Criminal Investigative Service has classified her death as a suicide. Valdivia was kennel master of the largest military kennel in the world. In 2005 she was named Sailor of the Year at the Bahrain Naval Base.

Although the data on the number of suicides in the military is vague and purposely underreported by the Veterans Administration, of 69 suicides of men in the military since 2002, 64 committed suicide in the United States, 1 in Kuwait, 2 in Iraq and 2 in Afghanistan. Men are much more likely to commit suicide once they return from a combat zone, than in the combat zone. Of the 8 alleged suicides of women in the military, 3 were in Iraq, 2 in the US, 1 in Kuwait and 1 in Bahrain. The question of why women would be more likely to commit suicide outside the US than once home should be investigated.

The circumstances surrounding each of these deaths warrants further investigation by the US military. Congress can compel the military to reopen cases and provide further investigation.

I strongly urge the Congress to demand further investigation of the deaths of these women.

US Army Reserve Colonel, Retired, Ann Wright is a 29-year veteran of the Army and Army Reserves. She was also a US diplomat in Nicaragua, Grenada, Somalia, Uzbekistan, Kyrgyzstan, Sierra Leone, Micronesia, Afghanistan and Mongolia. She resigned from the US Department of State in March 19, 2003 in opposition to the Iraq War. She is the co-author of “Dissent: Voices of Conscience.” (www.voicesofconscience.com)

Child Abuse

April 27, 2008

http://www.stormfront.org/forum/showthread.php?t=485186

Svarg started a thread on SF with the stats that WN like to use to justify their statements that Blacks and non whites commit more child abuse than Whites.  I get angry when I see White Nationalists spew out these stats without feeling or compassion.  To me their trying to use this issue to justify their feelings of I am white so therefore I am better and I don’t do the terrible things that others do.

I don’t care if you are white, Black, Hispanic, or the man from Mars.  If you seuxally abuse children than one is to many.  This is one of those posts that I want to respond to so I respond here in my journal.  I am trying to sort out my feelings and deal with them and not try to numb them with food or as I did in my youth use both food and also smoked a lot of pot.

Here is his first post:  Svarg wrote.

“There is a myth that Whites are more often abusing children.

Let’s look at the statistics

http://www.ojp.usdoj.gov/bjs/pub/pdf/rsorp94.pdf

White : 77,6%
Black : 20,7%
Other : 1,7%

slightly deeper

Non hispanic white : 54,1%
Hispanic : 23,5%
Black : 20,7%
Other : 1,7%

So non-hispanic Whites make up 70% of American society, but only 50% of child abusers are non-hispanic White.

Negroes make up 12% of society and 20% of child abusers are negro

http://www.ojp.usdoj.gov/bjs/pub/ascii/cvvoatv.txt

Of the 3,115 rapists, 1,735 (55.7% of
3,115) were white males and 1,327
(42.6%) were black males. Of the
6,576 sexual assaulters, 4,768 (72.5%
of 6,576) were white males and 1,723
(26.2%) were black males.

Again, negroes make up a mere 12% of the US population but 26% of child abusers are negro

Looking deeper :

White males make up 37% of population and 70% of child abusers are White. This is a slightly high rate

But let’s look at negroes : negro males make up 5% of society and 25% of child abusers are negro. (5x rate five times higher than should be)

Who is the child abuser ? NEGRO”(Svarg wrote)

 
My thoughts:
As  someone who grew up being abused as a child,  I really care about this issue.  I don’t want to see any other child born in this country or anywhere around the world to grow up being abused.  I don’t want any other child to grow up and have emotional problmes because of the effects of abuse in their lives.  I don’t want to see anymore children and young people be emotionally destroyed because of rape and not be able to move pass it and fullfill the destiny that it was ment for them to fill.
I have always loved children and I don’t want to see any other children be so destroyed emotionally that they even when their body goes into adult hood are still that lost child looking for someone (a hero) to help them, for justice to be done, and for just someone to believe them.  So many times we aren’t believed or we are blamed for the sexual abuse that happen to us.
To you Svarg it is just an issue, but to me it is personal.
Does it really matter Svarg what the stats are?  Is your stats going to change anything?  Is it going to save one child from being abused or raped?  NO, it is only going to make you and your fellow White Nationalists feel good and to allow you to continue to delude yourselves that if you do achieve your goal of a White America that no more children will be abused.  WRONG.  You have sick people who are white who like little children so it will still happen.  You use your stats to scare people into thinking that if they join you and fighting to create this white American Paradise that there will be no crime.  That is a lie!!!!!!!!!
Yes, Child abuse is very personal to me.  Anyone who abuses or rapes a child is evil and sick.  I don’t care what race he is, I only care that he is a dangerous person and should be locked up.  The man who took me for the first time, who worked for my parents, was Greek.  He was a Greek Immagrant and all these years later I can still smell him and I dislike anything Greek very strongly.  I don’t blame all the Greek people for that sick evil man.  But you White Nationalists blame the whole black Race for a few sick people who abuse and rape children.  THAT IS WRONG!!!!!!
You have White Nationalists leaders who are serving time now in prision for having child porn on his computer.  Kevin Strom will be in prision for a couple a years I read somewhere.  When he was first arrested there were many White Nationalists who defended him and justified his actions.  It was said that he was framed or some other lame excuse to defend this White Nationalist leader.  When he gets out will he be welcomed back with open arms?  I think so, because other leaders within White Nationalism haven’t openly denounced him yet.
When White Nationalists talk about child abuse and throw their stats around it makes me ill to my stomach, because I feel it is just words and doesn’t really mean anything, because leaders within White Nationalism will cover up for the other leaders who are seuxally perverted.
It shouldn’t matter what the race is of the person who is guilty of abusing a child.  He shouldn’t be judged because of the color of his skin and the black or non white abuser gets death and the white abuser gets time out and welcome back when the time out is finished.
People say that won’t happen with Kevin Strom, but I don’t believe it.  They will find a way to bring him back into the fold someway and White Nationalists will buy into it.
Sometimes I wish that the classmate who raped me at knife point in 1973-1974 school year would have slashed my throat and killed my body that day, because he killed me emotionally that day.  Whatever bright future I had was destroyed that day.
Maybe now at 50 I can overcome and finally find a way to move pass this emotional block that I have.  Maybe I can find a way to fullfill the destiny that I was born to fullfill.  I really hope so.  I feel like my life is so wasted up to this point and I want to find a way to live.
One of my good qualities is that I never allow anything that has happen to me to make me bitter, but always put a smile on my face for the outside world.  I am not a whiner but keep hoping that something good will finally happen to me.  I have passion and compassion.  I have strength but at the same time I am gentle and kind.  I have a heart of gold, but strong willed at the same time.  I am smart and not stupid, but have had to self teach myself because I was in terrible schools  who failed me.
Last Friday night I was out to dinner with some friends.  I was talking to another person who was from MA.  I told her I feel like Dorthy in the Wizzard of OZ that just wanted to go home.  I told her I just want to go home to Massachusetts.  I just want to go home to the commonwealth that I have always loved.  I want to walk the shores of the beautiful coastline, to walk in the Boston Commons and eat some wonderful food that one can only find back home.  I know someday I will go back home when they bring me back to bury me in the family plot in Lynn, but I would like to go home while I am still breathing.
I still have a dream.  If someone had figured out the truth and riddle about me when I was still young or even in my 20′s and helped me than I would have gone to college in Massachusetts and become a social worker who works with abused kids there.  If I hadn’t been allowed to fall through the cracks I would have made something with my life and once I was helped go on helping other abused children so that they too could overcome.  It didn’t happen and I don’t know if at 50 I still have time to go to school and make that dream of becoming a social worker a reality.
What college in Massachusetts is going to accept me a high school drop out with a GED and a AAS Degree?  I don’t have the grades or the SAT scores to compete with young people.  I need to go to a four year college in order to be a social worker.
When I read your White Nationalists stats and the attitudes you people have it gets me really angry because to you we are not faces or real life people whose lives have been shattered by violent crime, but stats used to justify to yourselves that Whites are not so bad as others.
I don’t think White Nationalists really care about the those who are dealing with the effects of violent crime touching their lives.  I think the only thing you care about is justifying your claim that White people don’t committ the crimes that other people commit so therefore bully for us we are so much greater than someone else.  That really makes me sick.
It makes me sick when White Nationalists cover up and defend the guilty who just happen to be White and hold leadership positions within White Nationalism.  It really left a bad taste in my mouth.
Instead of only thinking about yourselves and how you can twist things around to make you feel good, why don’t you reach out to the person who is suffering because of the effects of crime.  No, you just have to tell them that the person who caused this suffering and committed this act toward you wasn’t white(when they know first hand that it was a White person).  I think I know better than you who my attackers were.  They were WHITE.
Do not give me this crap that White people do not committ rape.
I am hoping this blog journal will be a tool in healing of the emotional pain I have been suffering for years.  I used to love Pat Benatar who sang a song called Hell is for children.  I would play that song over and over and over again. I wore out the album. I know what hell is because I have lived in it.  Instead of using food, drugs, or drink I started this blog journal to write.  Maybe writing my feelings will be the release I need to let go of the past.
I really hope so.  My goal for the this year is to learn how to cope and deal with my emotions without food to numb the pain.  I quit smoking pot years ago.  If I can find other outlets to release my feelings than I can loose the weight I need and maybe even find a way to go to school and achieve my dream of being a social worker and maybe being able to move back home.
I also have the added problem that one way I coped with things is that I would allow myself to leave my body.  They had my body but not my spirit.  Sometimes I don’t know what I feel.  I have lost connection to my body.  When I was taking food disorder class they would have us keep this journal of our feelings when we ate food.  I hated it because I never knew how I felt.  I couldn’t do that.  I still haven’t been able to do that.  I know I need to learn how to so that food will not be used anymore to keep me from finding out how I am really feeling.
Maybe it is good that I have started this journal blog and if it helps someone else who is suffering because of being abused, raped, or any other violent crime and they are having a hard time moving past it and we can make this journey together to find healing, peace, and most important to be able to move forward and fullfill our destiny than I will be very happy and feel that God is using this journal blog for his purpose to help people.
God Bless you all
Chrisy

KBR’s Rape Problem

April 19, 2008

KBR’s Rape Problem

by Karen Houppert

As news broke of the rape of yet another US military contractor employee in Iraq [see “Another KBR Rape Case” at thenation.com], the Senate Foreign Relations Committee convened a hearing April 9 to demand that the Justice Department explain why it has failed to prosecute a single sexual assault case in the theater since the Iraq War began.

“American women working in Iraq and Afghanistan continue to be sexually assaulted while their assailants go free,” said Senator Bill Nelson, who called the hearing. Because squabbles about who has jurisdiction in these cases have proliferated, Nelson arranged to have representatives from the Defense, State and Justice departments sit down together in front of him. They were forced to listen while the latest victims testified.

Dawn Leamon, who worked for a subsidiary of KBR and had told her story to The Nation a week before, described–with her back to the packed room and her voice (mostly) steady — being sodomized and forced to have oral sex with a KBR colleague and a Special Forces soldier two months earlier. When she reported the incident to KBR supervisors, she met a series of obstacles, she said. “They would tell me to stay quiet about it or try to make it seem as if I brought it on myself or lied about it.”

Another woman, Mary Beth Kineston, who worked as a commercial trucker for KBR in Iraq, testified that she had been raped in the cab of her truck by a KBR subcontractor employee at night while waiting in line to fill her water tanker truck. She immediately reported the incident to her supervisors; no one did a rape kit test, referred her for medical treatment or even offered to escort her back through the dark to her quarters that night.

Also at the hearing was Jamie Leigh Jones, whose story made the news in December, when she alleged that her 2005 gang rape by Halliburton/KBR co-workers in Iraq was being covered up by the company and the government. Jones, who has formed a nonprofit to support the many other women with similar experiences, says forty employees of US contractors have contacted her with stories of sexual assault or sexual harassment — and accounts of how Halliburton, KBR and the Cayman Island-based Service Employees International Inc. (SEII), a KBR shell company, either failed to help them or outright obstructed them.

As the number of women coming forward rises, Congress has begun to question why these crimes are not being prosecuted. In fact, there are several laws on the books that would allow these cases to proceed: the problem is not a lack of legal tools but a lack of will. “There is no rational explanation for this,” says Scott Horton, a lecturer at Columbia Law School who specializes in the law of armed conflict. Prosecutorial jurisdiction for crimes like the alleged rapes of Jones and Leamon is easily established under the Military Extraterritorial Jurisdiction Act and the Patriot Act’s special maritime and territorial jurisdiction provisions. But somebody has to want to prosecute the cases.

Senator Nelson noted that the Defense Department, which has reported 742 sexual assaults against soldiers and civilians in Iraq and Afghanistan, has claimed that it was unable to prosecute cases involving civilians — like defense contractor employees — until recently. (Even among those cases where it clearly had jurisdiction, a close look at the DoD’s own stats reveals a far from stellar record: among the 684 sexual assault complaints lodged by US soldiers in the Middle East, only eighty-three cases have led to courts-martial. Meanwhile, last year alone, 2,688 sexual assaults were reported globally against women serving in the US Armed Forces; disposition of these cases is pending.)

Worse, those figures represent only the official count. Given that so many women are now coming forward complaining that they have been hushed by their private-military-contractor supervisors, it’s clear that the real tally is likely far higher. Even in cases where the victims do report the incidents, most complaints never see the light of day, thanks to the fine print in employee contracts, which compels employees into private arbitration instead of allowing their charges to be heard in a public courtroom. Todd Kelly, a lawyer in Houston who is trying to fight the legality of private arbitration, says his firm alone has fifteen clients with sexual assault, sexual harassment or retaliation complaints (for reporting assault and/or harassment) against Halliburton and its former subsidiary KBR, as well as SEII.

Obviously, US military contractors have an interest in avoiding the bad publicity that would follow if these complaints were not kept secret. With huge sums hanging in the balance — KBR has an estimated $16 billion in contracts — the stakes are high.

But such a financial incentive cannot explain why the Justice Department has failed to act. Although it has the authority to pursue criminal cases involving US military contractor employees, it has hemmed and hawed over even the tiny fraction of cases that have made their way through the maze of obstacles to land in the Justice Department’s offices. Grilling Justice about these twenty-four civilian sexual assault cases, Senator Nelson demanded to know exactly how many cases Justice was pursuing — and whether there had been a single conviction. “I don’t know of any convictions for sexual assault,” admitted Sigal Mandelker, deputy assistant attorney general for the Criminal Division. But, she stammered, “we do have active investigations…somewhere about…somewhere upwards of…somewhere between four and six, I believe is the number.” (Leamon’s attorney just learned that the department is initiating an investigation into her case.)

At the hearing, Nelson dryly observed that there was a very quick way to make sure US contractors did not force employees into private arbitration, and an easy way to force contractors to follow established protocols for sexual assault and harassment: “This might be something you want to require and include in your contracts–before you award them,” he said. To which, in quick succession, the Defense, State and Justice department representatives responded that, well, they couldn’t respond because this was, er, beyond their area of expertise.

Karen Houppert, special correspondent for The Washington Post Magazine and frequent Nation contributor, is the author of Home Fires Burning: Married to the Military-for Better or Worse.

Copyright © 2008 The Nation

Answer to Question from Stormfront

April 11, 2008

I found this post on Stormfront this morning. I thought I would answer the question here. This will be a good question for me to think out and sort out in my mind.

The post form Stormfront:
“Here’s a question that’s concerned me for some time.

Given that 65-70% of rape on white women in Scandinavia are committed by Muslim men, who make up around 5% of the population …

And given that a majority of all rape of white women in America is by ethnic minorities, who in total make up only 32% of the population …
(especially black men, who commit one third of the rapes, despite making up only 12% of the population) …

… is feminism, or at least the privileged white Western feminism that’s primarily concerned with White Western womens’ interests, on a collision course with multiculturalism?

Obviously not. But why not?

Feminism in the West generally shows precious little concern for the really important issues globally. Women go without the vote, go without being allowed out of the family home, go without being allowed to drive a car, go without all sorts of basic rights in all sorts of countries around the globe.Yet its rare to hear those who espouse feminism mention other things, their primary target is the White western male and bashing him by any possible means.

You wouldn’t know any of the above affected anyone if you listened to most Western feminists. Once you get past the ‘all men are rapists’ nonsense, you’re generally left with handwringing about being fat,denouncements of beauty pagents,abortion propaganda or or shrill demands for more taxpayer funded childcare.

But the colour factor in rape is one issue that they don’t ever acknowledge. Because there is a simple, though unpalatable fact at the heart of it.

If White Western women could take one simple precaution to protect themselves from rape, it would be to avoid the company of ethnic minority men, especially Muslims and Black men.

If feminism really cared about the needs of White Western women, maybe this should be on the agenda somewhere.

The multicultural experiment is predicated on the assumption that when cultures mingle, everyone benefits. These concerning statistics indicate in terms of sexual predation, white women are not benefiting from multiculturalism.

When liberalisms clash, it’s never pretty. That’s why it never happens. That’s why it gets brushed under the carpet.

I bet you never heard a feminist refer to the colour or ethnicity of rapists. And I bet you never heard a multicultural theorist acknowledge the problem of rape by ethnic minorities either.

Now, I don’t know why ethnic minorities are raping white women so much. It may be that they some seek a semblance of power through sexual predation. But that’s just a theory.

Perhaps some feminist could examine this and come up with a better theory? Perhaps some multicultural theorist could research it and find some conclusions that could help reverse this appalling trend?

I won’t hold my breath.”
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First of all I would like to know where you get your crime stats. You didn’t say the source. All I can say is that speaking from the point of view of a woman who has been raped that my attacker was White. He was a fellow student of the high school I went to because even though he had a ski mask that covered his face he had shorts on with the school name on them. I don’t know who he is or why? When I went to the school office afterward to report it and ask for help they said I deserved it and that I being the girl asked for it. That is when I said I will never go back to school.   Why would the school be so heartless when a girl student is raped by a fellow student?  I had a violent crime committed against me by a fellow student while walking to school, yet they wouldn’t do anything.  I have often felt that I wish he would have slit my throat that day because even though he didn’t kill my body, my emotional side died that day.  I still am the little girl emotionally who wants so much to put the rape behind her.
You talk about rape like it is a cold fact, but these are women, girls, and even young boys who have been raped.  We are not some dolls who have no feeling but real life people who feel many feelings but I think one common feeling we all feel is anger and feeling like we have been violated.  Many times if you are a kid, no one believes you.  You get told you are lying.  I am not lying, a fellow student as I was walking to School one morning grabed me and put a knife to my throat and pulled me into the bushes.  HE had a ski mask so I couldn’t see his face.  When he was finished I went to the office for help and they said I desterved it and that being the girl I asked to be attacked.  They didn’t believe me.  Why didn’t they help me?

It wasn’t non whites who made me afraid to attend school it was fellow whites. It is not only Black people who committ violent crimes in this country it is White people too. Maybe the reason the stats make it seem like Black people committ more rapes is that many of the victims are made to feel that they are guilty for it happening to them because they did something to make the boy take them at knife point, or some other reason why the crime is not reported. There are alot of rapes in this country that go unreported for years.  Some rapes never get reported because the victim is made out as some whore who asked to be raped.

But I did want to start putting my thoughts in my journal after reading this and trying to answer his question. He may never see it, but I am not answering it for him, but for my own mind.

I am back now after a nice day with my friend and a nice dinner.  I won the raffle ticket and wanted to add more thoughts to this before going to bed.  I will add some more tomorrow as I don’t have to work.

Yes, we women should be concerned with all women who are being denied their civil rights.  I lived in a Christian Idenitity Cult which was a living hell.  I see the raid in TX and I praise TX for getting those women and children out of that cult.  I can relate to some of the things that they are going through because Jeff believed many of the same things.  They will have a long hard road ahead of them.  Yes, we as women should be fighting to make sure women are able to vote, able to choose for themselves who they want to marry. 

I think we do care about women’s rights all over the world.  I think it is wrong to imply that we don’t care about all women.  I know that I would like to help other women and children who are still trapped inside those cults to be free.  I want to work with other abused women and children to overcome there past and find a way to move forward.  I know I need to heal first, and maybe find a way to get the education I lack.  I think once I am healthy I would like to go into social work.  That is just one thought.  I am not sure it can ever happen as I am 50 years old and what college would want to take me who is a high school drop out, but I do have a Ged and a AAS Degree in Medical Office Asst.

I may be one woman, but I do have a heart and a desire to help women who are oppressed.  I lived like that and know what it is like.  It was very hard for me to leave Jeff.  A part of me felt like God would strike me dead if I left or give me some kind of illness to punish me.  Yet, I knew I couldn’t stay because I couldn’t submit and obey(be sweet) as they call it.  I couldn’t submit to his teachings.  Women have no rights and in fact are told you have a roof over your head, food in your stomach and clothes on your back and as a woman you should expect nothing more in life.  I wanted more.  I don’t know maybe I was selfish as Jeff used to say to me time and time again, but I don’t think I am selfish as I put other people first.  I wanted to be happy.  Is it being selfish for someone to want to find happiness in life and to enjoy life a little bit?

You seem to imply in your posts that strong women (Feminist) only want to bash White males and destroy your manhood. I don’t think that is true. I know White Nationalist’s believe that, but it is not true. The truth is that we as women do want to help all women around the globe be able to choose their life path. For so many years women have many times been treated as second class citizens. We want to have equal opportuny. We want all people to have a chance to achieve what they desire in life and not be told you can’t do that because you are a girl or women. I remember as a girl I liked the sax and I thought it would be neat to learn how to play it. I was told you can’t because you are a girl and young ladies do not play the sax but piano. Don’t get me wrong I like the piano and the violin that I did learn, but why can’t young girls learn the sax if that is what they want? Is it the end of the world if a girl learns how to play the sax?

How does girls learning to play the sax, women having the chance to go to Medical school/Law School or any other school to become doctors, lawyers are any other field for careers destroy your White Manhood? Women can do so much more than just being nurses, teachers, and housewifes. I am not putting stay at home wifes and mothers down because I think that is the most important role we have as women to be good mothers as we are raising the future generation of Americans, but I think if a woman chooses to have a career and be a good mom that she can do both. Tell me how does it destroy your manhood if a woman has equal rights as a White Man?

I know I have read many times on White Nationalist boards and my years in Christian Idenitity that Jews are behind the womens movement and for that matter everything under the sun. I don’t think that is true. I have seen so many posts where any woman who is strong and has a mind she wants to develop and educate herself is called an evil feminazi who wants to destroy White Manhood. I would think and hope that a White Man or any Man for that maner would want to help develop the woman’s mind so that she can live up to her full potential in life. Why do women get held back?

Look we all have a destiny in life. If we don’t allow women to be educated in a safe place where they are free to learn without having to worry about being attacked violently by a classmate than we will continue to have another generation of girls who will not receive the best education because they won’t be going to school and will drop out. You White Nationalist only focus on Non White Violence but never the White on White violence that happens all the time. Many times it just doesn’t get reported because the woman is scared, not believed, or made out to be a whore, and even worst if the rape does go to trial the woman is on trial and made out to be some slut. The reality is that many rape victims don’t want to go through the circus and just deal with the effects the best they can. I know first hand there is no compassion or even help offered to the rape victim.

I never really thought of myself as a feminist because I hold traditional values, but what does the word feminist really mean. I think that it means different things to different people. To you it is a bad word because you think women want to ursurp their place in the world.

I use to hear that alot from Jeff that I want to ursurp my place in the world, which in his eyes was that of a slave that was only born to serve men. HE felt that woman could do nothing without the supervision of a man. He believed that women had no rights and was totally at the mercy of her spiritual husband as there was no legal marriage but the cult marriage.

A woman and child could be beaten with a wooden paddle if he did anything in his eyes that was wrong. So many times I was told I was rebellous, selfish because I could not totally submit to his ideas and because I felt that I wanted to be happy and enjoy life. I wanted more to life than just being at the mercy of a man who viewed me as a slave and not even as a human being. I couldn’t be the Stepford wife. I didn’t like it when he would duck tape my month. I didn’t like being hit with a wooden paddle until I would cry. I would tell myself I am not going to cry. I would try very hard not to cry. He could never break my spirit. But their came a time when it hurt so much being hit with the wooden paddle that I would cry out. I would be mad at myself for giving in and crying so that the beating would stop.

To me the word feminist is fighting for women’s rights all over the world and as you mentioned it is a global fight and we have a long way to go. I don’t think you can lump all feminists together. Yes it is true that many Feminists are pro choice(pro abortion) but I am pro life. I am Catholic and I follow the teachings of my church. I would feel like a hyprocrit if every Sunday in Mass I pray to stop the murder of the unborn and than once out of church I fight for abortion rights. There again I have personal reasons why I think abortion is evil and destroys lives and we as a country need to find a better way.

I may be in the minority but I am sure that I am not the only women who is pro-life and and is also a Democrat. We may be small in numbers but the fact is that I don’t think one can lump all women together. I think we are all different that we should embrace each other and that all people should work to better understand each other. I don’t want division among us, but finding a way to work together to solve the problems that this country is faceing.

We have so many problems that we as Americans need to solve. We need to work together to bring about this change that is very much needed and find a way for women, men, white, blacks, hispanics, Asians, and any other American to take this country back for the people.

Did you know that there are issues that we liberals agree with you White Nationalists? We agree that the war in Iraq is wrong and we need to bring our troops home. We both agree that Bush is a traitor and should be impeached. I used to think that if on those two issues that we found a way to work not together but being active and doing the same things but in our different groups that we might just be able to bring to light the crimes that George W Bush has committed since he has been President and the stripping away of our Constitution and our rights. We are both against the American Patriot Act which all in the name of our security strips away more of our rights as Americans that we have known over the years. I used to think that if we work in concert of each other that we might have the numbers to actually bring about the change needed to bring the troops home. I don’t think so anymore. I think that even though we agree on those few issues that there is no way that we should work together. I don’t know maybe I am wrong, because I am such a polyanna that always likes to think the best of people that we could work together as Americans to bring about the change that is very much needed, but the problem is that when I say American I mean everyone who is an American Citizen and when you say American you mean only White people.

I will not lie I met charming White Nationalists at the two Euro conferences I went to. They were gentlemen and treated me with respect and I came to develop love and friendship with some of them. I was just coming out of the CI cult and after Jeff got finished with me I had very little self esteem. I felt I didn’t deserve any good in my life. Actually I still feel that way that I do not deserve anything good in my life because I have been told my whole life that I am a bad evil person.

The White Nationalists I met through Stormfront and at Euro when I finally met them in person made me feel like I was smart, which for the first time in my life I felt maybe I wasn’t as stupid as I have been told my whole life. The truth is that I am not stupid I just haven’t had the best education. I don’t turn off my feelings like a hot and cold water tap and there are a few who helped me when I needed help in life who threw out the life line who I love very much and I will always love. On my part they will always be my friend no matter what the future brings. Once I love someone as a friend and they are in my heart they are always in my heart. We may be on different sides of the political fence, but because they helped me when I needed help they will always be loved by me as a dear friend.

One of my gifts and I think it is a gift in a world where there is so little real love is that I love unconditionally. Once I love someone as a friend it doesn’t matter what they do to me I still love them. When I was a kid they did this test and the results were that I love like Jesus loved and turn the other cheek. So even people who 20 years ago I asked to help me because of abuse in my life, and I might add was being abused by my mother because of him that I still love that person as a friend and if he was to walk into my life again that I would welcome him with open arms. Love to me is never having to say your sorry for the mistakes we make. WE all make mistakes and if I want people to love me unconditionally than I must love them unconditionally first.

I posted this because I thought your question was a good one and it was address to feminists. I started this blog so that I can heal and sort out the cobwebs in my mind. I want to know what truth is and what is a lie that has been fed to me as truth. I guess I started this blog to deprogram me. Since I walked away from Jeff and his Christian Idenitity Cult(Church) it has taken me 8 years to get to the place I am now where I have just begun to find my way home. Jeff used to tell me I was stink to God, so it took me a long time before I allowed myself to believe that I could go back to the Catholic Church or that Jesus loved me. I still have a way to go, but I think for the first time since the light bulb switched on last Summer that I see the light at the end of this dark tunnel.

You may never see the answer to your question you asked on SF, but I am doing this journal blog for me and you asked a question that I thought I should think about and try to answer. This is for me. If that makes me selfish because I want to get healthy and move forward to live and overcome my past so that emotionally I can become the woman that God wants me to be and I can move forward and fullfill my destiny. I have a destiny and I want to find it.

Milatary Mom Says She Was Brutally Raped in Iraq

April 10, 2008

Military Mom Says She Was Brutally Raped in Iraq

Dawn Leamon, Who Alleges She Was Raped by Two Men, Told Her Story on Capitol Hill

 

Dawn Leamon, who has two sons on active duty, says she was raped earlier this year by a U.S. soldier and a KBR colleague.

She will tell her horrific story to members of Congress today at a hearing of the Senate Committee on Foreign Relations.

Leamon says that following her rape, she spoke with a woman at the KBR Employee Assistance Program. “She discouraged me from reporting, saying, ‘You know what will happen if you do,’” Leamon said.

Leamon says KBR then assigned full-time security guards to her which gave her no privacy to talk about the incident, and her movements around camp were restricted, yet her attackers’ movements were unrestricted.

My heart goes out to this woman.  Any woman who has been raped understands.

This may be a stupid question, but way were her movements restricted, yet the attackers movements were un restricted?  Is that because she is a woman.  Is it the same reason why when I went to the school office and told them a fellow classmate held a knife to my throat and pulled me into the bushes that it was my fault and that I deserved what to be raped?

Why is it so common for people not to believe that rape victim?  I know other women who too were not believed when they talked about being sexually molested as children.

Another thing that speak out to me is that this woman was discouraged from reporting the rape.  Again no one wants to talk about rape but sweep it under the carpet and pretend it didn’t happen.  Let’s play the game denial and make the rape victim the scapegoat.  Let’s leave the victim of this violent crime to deal with the effects without any help from anyone, because after all she is lying and the rape never took place is the mindset that much to often prevails when discussing rape.

Society, our family, our friends just want us to never mention the crime again and pretend it didn’t happen.  Well, it did happen and maybe someday society will instead of acting more salt to the wound will actually help treat the woman, girl, the victim of rape so that we can move forward in life and not be having to deal with the effects of a violent crime alone and with no help.

 

The Greatest Silence: Rape in the Congo

April 7, 2008

Published on Saturday, April 5, 2008 by The Women’s International Perspective

The Greatest Silence: Rape in the Congo

by Jessica Mosby

“Rape has always been used as a weapon of war” is the opening line of the new documentary film The Greatest Silence: Rape in the Congo. For 76 minutes the film exposes the incredibly brutal civil war that has raged for over ten years in the Democratic Republic of Congo (DRC). Not only have over four million people been killed, but over 250,000 women and girls have been raped, kidnapped, and tortured.The film, which premiers on HBO April 8th, vividly captures the silent and often ignored rape survivors in their country where chaos and violence are part of every day. One element that makes the film so powerful is that director Lisa F. Jackson has a reason to feel very much connected to the subject matter: in 1976 she was gang-raped as she was leaving her Washington D.C. office late at night. The three men who attacked her were never caught.

Jackson bravely traveled alone to the war torn regions of eastern Congo interviewing rape survivors; her own rape allows her to make a special connection with the Congolese women. In one scene, when Jackson tells her own story, the women suspect that such an atrocity could not happen in the United States. One woman asks her, “Was there a war in your country?” Everyone seems doubtful until Jackson produces the newspaper articles documenting her story. Jackson slowly gains everyone’s trust, and the resulting footage is truly harrowing.

“It became so much woman to woman. I very quickly lost that sense of them being ‘other.’ It made it easier, but it also made it harder…there were a lot of tears alone in my room at night,” said Jackson during a recent phone interview. “I would find myself, at Panzi or in the bush for instance, and there were entire villages of women who had been raped – there was not a woman there who had not suffered.”

The unending conflict in the DRC has led to an exponential increase in the number of rapes. Most of the rapists are members of the armed militias, and therefore have impunity. The film makes it clear that prosecution is unlikely because most survivors do not report their rape and, even if they do contact the authorities, there is only one person – National Police officer Major Honorine Munyole – who investigates sex crimes in the eastern portion of the country.

Shame and social stigmas are universal and often prevent women anywhere from reporting rape; in the DRC these attitudes are particularly prevalent. As Marie Jeanne, a 34 year old mother of eight tells Jackson, she was gang-raped by five Rwandan soldiers when she was five months pregnant and was too ill to escape. Her husband, who later left her and their children, told the family that Marie Jeanne “wanted to be raped.” Sadly, this attitude of blaming the survivor is all too common: many women find themselves abandoned by their families after being raped.

Viewers should be warned of the film’s truly upsetting content. Survivors describe the brutality of their rapes very bluntly. Your heart will break when 12 year old Safi, whose eyes are much too sad for someone so young, describes being raped at age 11 while soldiers looted her home.

Women of all ages vividly describe being raped by soldiers who also use sticks and guns to literally mutilate their genitalia and internal organs. The three soldiers who raped 70 year old Maria told her “you’re not too old for us.” After being raped, women must not only suffer the physiological consequences of sexual violence, but many, including Niota, who was raped by two soldiers at the age of 42, must endure a life of fistula and incontinence. Over thirty percent of women raped in the DRC contract HIV/AIDS.

The strength of the Congolese women Jackson meets is inspiring. Even after being raped and subsequently rejected by their families, women will walk for months through dense forests in search of urgent medical care. Once they reach a hospital – such as the Panzi hospital, which specializes in treating survivors of sexual violence – they must then wait even longer for a hospital bed to become available.

Panzi’s medical director Dr. Denis Mukwege, who personally treats many of the rape survivors, asks the unfortunately obvious questions, “Why is this happening? Why use sex in order to humiliate and defeat someone? To threaten someone so they flee their village? Why use sex? This is the monstrosity of this century.”

One wonders about the men who would commit such heinous acts against innocent women and girls. Jackson, along with United Nations translator and liaison Bernard Kalume, travel deep into the jungles of the Congo to interview soldiers. That footage, which Jackson only obtained by putting herself in grave danger, is also incredible.

For the most part, the soldiers take little responsibility for their actions; none seem remorseful. Rather, they blame the civil war for creating a situation where they must be away fighting instead of being in their villages with their families. As one man tells Jackson, he makes women suffer because he is suffering.

There is also a markedly misogynistic rationale behind the rapes: the soldiers express the deep-rooted social belief that women are inferior and therefore men can take what they want from them – including sex. Even when Jackson directly asks the men how they would feel if their mothers and sisters were raped, the grave reality of the sexual violence these soldiers have committed doesn’t seem to resonate with them.

After witnessing these interviews, Kalume – whose first wife, a Tutsi, was murdered during Rwandan genocide in 1994 – is very upset about what his native Congo has become. He thinks of his daughters and the terrible fate that befalls so many Congolese women. “If a society cannot protect women and kids, what kind of society is that?” asks Kalume. “If men themselves start to torture, to kill, to kidnap, to rape women and teenagers, how can you say this is normal, a society of human beings? It becomes just a real jungle – that is what we are living in – it’s a real jungle.”

In the DRC, two-thirds of women are illiterate and most do not have any employable skills. Couple that with a crumbled infrastructure and few resources, and you have the desperate situation of Congolese rape survivors. Jackson visits a Catholic church where nuns have organized a support group for them. While the group is able to help women cope emotionally, the church doesn’t have enough food, medicine, or clothes to go around.

Such extreme poverty should not be happening in a country with such vast natural resources. But the Congolese people are not benefiting from the gold, diamonds, and coltan (a metallic ore used in all computers, cell phones, and DVD players) sales; instead, most of the natural resources are stolen and illegally exported – and ironically the profits then fuel the conflict.

While The Greatest Silence: Rape in the Congo is very personal and informative, Jackson’s tone is never heavy-handed or didactic. Prior to her trip to the DRC, she had collected cosmetic samples to give to the women she planned to meet and interview. But after meeting women whose hardships are almost too terrible to be real, Jackson realizes that giving a rape survivor who has contracted HIV/AIDS a miniature lipstick just seems trite and irrelevant. Jackson’s honesty and candor are extremely refreshing.

If you watch the documentary expecting easy solutions, know that the film doesn’t present any. According to Jackson, “There are so many little components that must fall into place for them to have futures, not to just merely exist.” The official international response – by UN peacekeepers and international aid groups – has made few inroads. Some UN peacekeepers have even been accused of rape themselves and of trading necessities, such as milk and bread, for sex. On the other hand some female international aid workers have been raped by the militias.

In July of 2007 a United Nations Human Rights Council on violence against women report found, to no one’s surprise, that sexual violence was rampant in the DRC and the government’s response was almost non-existent. In January of 2008, a peace deal was signed which included an official cease fire and resettlement program. But these official reports and policies are doing little to aid the plight of rape survivors. And there is already a second generation of survivors: the children of rape – including three year old Lumiere, who was conceived when her mother Imakile was raped by two Rwandan soldiers at age 15 – who must contend with the social stigmas associated with sexual violence.

I saw the film at the Sundance Film Festival where it won the Special Jury Prize: Documentary. The press screening was the first festival event where I did not have to wait in line; when the film started, the theatre was only half full. I don’t know if the poor turnout was a reflection of people’s lack of interest in the subject matter, or if people just want to ignore the human rights violations happening a world away because hearing women describe their horrific rapes and torture is so gut-wrenching.

Jackson hopes that the documentary will start a grassroots movement for change, similar to the movement to end the genocide in Darfur. Even if viewers don’t lobby the United States Congressional Subcommittee on Human Rights and Law – as Jackson did on April 2nd – she hopes “that people are motivated to find out more and educate themselves on the conflict.”

After watching The Greatest Silence: Rape in the Congo it is painfully obvious that the international community, individuals and governments alike, cannot continue to silently stand by for another ten years. Already generations of women have been emotionally and physically brutalized while their unrepentant perpetrators enjoy immunity.

Jessica Mosby is a writer and critic living in Berkeley, California.

Copyright © 2008 The Women’s International Perspective

White Nationalists and Women

April 5, 2008

To White Nationalists those of us who are white and who do not accept their message but are liberal and believe and fight for Social Justice and the Civil rights of all people from the womb to the tomb are traitors to the White Race.

White Nationalists can say they respect women all they want, but I don’t believe it. I have seen to many posts like this over the years to believe that women have any value in their eyes. Not all White Nationalists believe this because there are people who disagreed with Dr. Strangelove on the orginal thread. But to many White Nationalists if a woman wants more than to be a wife and mother she is an evil feminazi that is out to destroy manhood.

I saw this thread on Stormfront and I thought I would post my thoughts here and not on Stormfront.

Here is the thread from Stormfront:

Traitors
by BalanceBen

“Most (but not all) are beyond redemption and will eventually have to be removed from our societies once and for all if we’re ever going to have a clean,safe,white civilization again.”

What does this mean? That we are beyond redemption? Redemption from what? From the truth? From the truth that all men are created equal and that God loves all people regardless of race. And what do you mean by remove from your societies? Will you kill us and justify that murder because you need to remove us for the survival of your race, yet you would murder fellow Whites who held different poltical views than you do and condemn your views because they are hate filled and lead to more divsion and anger in this country than to love and understanding and becoming one country united in the fact we are Americans.

There are so many contradictions. One statement is you do what you do for love of race and want to perserve your race from destruction. It is all about love and the future of White Children, but yet you would condone murder of fellow whites because we are Liberal and reject your message. There is violence in your White Nationalist Cause, but yet you try and mislead people to think that you are just patriotic Americans trying to save America from being destroyed by people who are coming to this country seeking a better life for them and their families.

SmokeymoutainSS wrote:
“The only unforgiveable sin in the White Nationalist movement is for a white female to breed mongrels.”

Who are you Smokey to decide who anyone woman chooses as her mate or who she falls in love with?

I believe that people should be allowed to choose their own mate. They should be allowed to marry who they want to marry and hopefully the person who will be a good helpmate in life. One that knows the true meaning of love. Finding someone who will love you unconditionally is truly a gift from God. That kind of love is very rare. Most people will love you conditionally. IF the person you find in this life who can and will love you unconditionally and is the person you fall in love with just happens to be of another race than you alone with your partner should be the ones to decide if you are going to marry. I think it is sad that you and other White Nationalists tell someone who and who they can’t fall in love with or marry.

Dr. Strangelove adds:
“I would add to that by saying the most unforgivable sin is for a white female to allow herself to be defiled by a non-white male, particularly when that results in her giving birth to mixed-race off-spring. No white man likes damaged goods, particularly when they were polluted by some man of another race, and more especially so if a litter of nappy-headed pickaninnies come along as added baggage with such whores.”

So a woman who is raped is damaged goods and no man would ever want her. For years I felt like damaged goods because the first sexual encounter I had was when I was a little girl by a White man who was from Greece who worked for my family. It was in my bedroom on my pink canopy bed. Yes, I heard that it was my fault because after all it happen. It is always the girls fault isn’t it? It is always the fault of the woman who allows herself to be deflowred. I have heard that line for the 40 years that it was my fault.

It was my fault that I was born pretty and that boys and men desired me at 10 years old. It was my fault that at 15 I was walking to school and a class mate who was White held a knife to my throat and pulled me into the bushes and had his way with me. Who when it was over and I went to the school office for help was told it was my fault because I allowed it to happen to me. I walked out and told them I would never be back at school again. They told me I couldn’t drop out as I wasn’t old enough. I said just watch me. I never went back.

The angry little girl is very much still inside me and comments like yours sometimes bring her out. Yes, I have felt like damaged good since I was 10 years old. I wanted to be a virgin and save myself for marriage. I wanted to be the best wife and mother in the world, but that Greek man who worked for my family took all that away from me the day he raped me. It wasn’t my choice and I can’t take that back, but to people I am still damaged goods and not marriage material because a White man wouldn’t want someone who had been deflowered.
I am glad that not all men are like you White Nationalists!!!!!

Yes, I have heard I was a whore my whole life. I was the bad girl the neighbors liked to talk about. Did they ever take the time to search for the truth of why I was angry and acting out? No, I was just the town whore. It didn’t matter that I was raped, I was still the town whore because I had been deflowred and was damaged goods.

Yes, I still have anger when I come accross people who have your thoughts Dr. Strangelove. I would like to think that people have gotten smarter in the last 40 years and not judge the girl or women, but atlas I see it is the same ole same old judgement of the girl and excusing the boys behavior as boys will be boys.

Do you know what it feels like to be 10 or 11 and be the only girl in the class who is sent home because the blouse on me made the boys think thoughts of sexual desire? I was pointed out and sent home, yet no talk was given to the boys about self-control and showing respect to me. No, I was the Hotlips, the one who was sent home for wearing the same blouse as all the other girls were wearing in the 6th grade. I was made into some sexual object and yes, I can see where they boys decided to take me. Yes, I have alot of anger over my childhood, schools and never really feeling safe. It wasn’t non whites who made me feel unsafe in school it was White boys who were allowed to have free reign with the sexual desires.

People think I am stupid. I am not stupid, but I really didn’t go to school after 7th grade. I played hookey and didn’t go because I didn’t feel safe and after being raped at school and told it was my fault I didn’t go back. I am self-educated and I want to learn things. If one was to look only on the outside of my life and not take the time to get to know me and what is in my heart they would think I was this evil bad person. That is such a lie.

Maybe someday I will meet another soulmate who can admire all the pain and crap I have had to overcome in my life and my fighting spirit not to give up hoping that someday my hero who finally understands the real me and the riddle will love me inspite of being damaged goods. Someone who loves my spirit and my compassionate heart. I am kind, gentle, and am such a good person. Yet, to the world and people like you they only see the bad girl who allowed herself to be deflowered before her wedding night.

I hope Dr. Strangelove that someday you will realize that you are adding to the pain of victims of rape by judging them so harshly.

Harlyquin writes:
“Wow, what century are we living in here where the image of the virtuous, fair, pleasant, virginal, patiently waiting submissive woman awaits the experienced male to whisk her away and teach her single handedly of the world? LOL. Woman are dogs, but since we are socialized to be submissive and neutral I’d say there is more of a chance for a woman to stray and to accept without question the words of lemmings. It is only once she has learned to question for herself that she may attain racial awareness; especially in those lovely democratic areas where race mixing is promoted from the time your eyes open at birth till the day you die. Men are supposed to be natural thinking and decision making giants, so for them to stray seems like more of a crime against their roles as examples of leadership for the white community”

So to this White Nationalist women are dogs!!!!!! I personally don’t think I am a dog. I don’t think any woman is a dog. I love dogs. I loved my Peaches very much. Peaches was my best friend. I believe dogs are wonderful and I love them very much. I am different than a dog. I think as a human being I can talk, I can think, I can reason.

I believe in traditonal role models because I take my Catholic faith very seriously. My dad was a great sailor and he was caption of the ship. I could be his first mate but the ship only has one caption. I know I don’t have the best education in the world so I like a man who I can ask questions to and teach me about subjects and give me knowledge that I should have been able to learn in school, but couldn’t. At the same time I have a great heart. I always looked at it as the husband was the head and the wife was the heart of the home. If the husband who is the caption of the ship really loves his first mate he is going to want to see her grow as a person. He will encourage her to do things that will add to her developing into the women she was ment to be. As the first Mate the wife is going to make the home a very restful, peaceful, calm place where after battling the world all day he can come home relax and have a safe harbor from the rough seas.

I may not be explaing this very well. But I know I would have been a wonderful wife and mother. I would have made some man a wonderful wife. I would have been a great helpmate. I and any other women no matter what role she chooses in life is more than a dog.

I am now 50 years old and and still hope to come to peace about my past and my childhood. I hope to reach the place where I am not allowing people to make me feel like it is my fault and I am this terrible person because I was deflowered before the wedding night by a man who took me. I am not going to allow people to make me feel bad about my past. I am not going to let my past hold me down anymore. It is my past and I can’t change it. Don’t you think that if I could go back and change the events I would?

Dr. Strangelove had this nice little quote that I would like to respond to:
Traitors

“It’s bad enough when a White girl does not preserve her virtue until she is bound to the man that is to be her husband, as no man of morals really wants a defiled slut for his wife if he could have something pure, chaste and pristine; but when a White girl allows herself to be defiled by non-white men that is not only crossing the line of decency, it is abandoning one’s morals completely to wallow in the most abhorrant form of filth and degradation possible. Virtue lost is irreplacable, but virtue thrown away to the dregs of society is unforgivable and worthy of extermination.”

Dr Strangelove also posted this:
“Well, perhaps purity and virtue are not prized by the younger generation of White men when it comes to their selecting a mate, however I see a girl who has lost her virginity to another man as being less desirable than one whose virtue is preserved. If I were looking to purchase an automobile, I would rather have a brand new one than one that has been previously owned and driven by someone else. If I were to go out and buy a suit of clothes I would prefer that they are fresh, new, clean and unworn, than something second-hand purchased from a thrift-store. But perhaps women who are not virgins can be had for a bargain price compared to those who have kept their virtue; after all they are used-goods and should be available at a cheap discount.”

It is people like you that have made me feel for the last 40 years that I am damaged goods because I was raped as a young girl. That because it happen to me it was my fault. That because it happen to me that I was now nothing and no decent man would want to marry me. I was a little girl. I didn’t even know what sex was when I was taken for the first time by a man, and yet it was my fault so I need to be punished for the rest of my life.

I wanted to be a virgin. I wanted to wait for my wedding night and give that gift to my husband, but that choice was taken away from me. I can’t change that. I didn’t want to sin before God. Yet, I was forced to sin against God. To the world it was always my fault because it happen to me. No one wanted to take an honest look at the truth, but be in denial and just make me the scapegoat.

Do you even care the damage that people like you do to young girls and young women who have been raped and are no longer virgins? Do you even care the damage that people like you do when someone who is raped by a fellow student and goes to the office for help and told it was her fault because she was the girl? Do you know how angry that makes a girl to know she is telling the truth and 1. she is either blamed because after all she must have done something to bring this act upon her. 2. that she is lying or 3. that she is the town whore because she is not a virgin anymore and even if she says no that to the school it was acceptable for that classmate to take me anyway and 4. she is crazy. p>

I use to runaway. Instead of the school asking why I was angry or acting up or not there they just labeled me as a bad kid who deserved to be raped by a classmate.

This is 2008 and people still have the same mindset as 1968 that doesn’t help the victim of a crime but harshly judges her and blames the girl for actions that she couldn’t stop. Tell me Dr. Strangelove if someone held a knife to your throat and pulled you into the bushes would you submit to their demands? Yes, I am the town whore because once the knife was held to my throat I submitted to save my life. My mindset was he has a knife to my throat so I better submit to his desires.

Do you know that many times during the last 40 years I had wished that he would have killed me that day? It would have been better to have been killed than for him to leave me alive. Not only do I have to deal with the effects of rape, but I have to deal with the fact that my own school wouldn’t help me after a classmate raped me and I went to the office for help, I have to deal with the harsh judgement of narrow minded people like you, and most important have been made to feel like it was my own fault for all these years.

Maybe I was not killed in body, but my future was killed that day when the gardener had his way with me. My hopes and dreams of meeting a nice guy who loved me who I loved, who would see the real me and see that I was a pearl in an oyster, who valued that I can love people unconditionally, that I was sweet, gentle, loving, but I also could be a spitfire and had strength and spirit. I wanted to be the best wife and mother I could be, because I thought that was such an important role to hold in this life.

I did have a soulmate once in my life. He died. I haven’t met another one who can overlook my past and figured out the riddle about me that I am not this bad person but I am a hurting person because I was the victim of a terrible crime and I am angry that no one understood or even cared enough to help me. I acted out because I am angry and hurting and just crying out for help.

When is the double standard going to stop that it is boys will be boys and the girls they sow their wild oats on are the scum of the earth but yet the boys who took them are wonderful people and the girls they took were the whores of the town. When a girl says no and the boy takes her anyway he is a rapist. When a girl is walking to school and she is grabed by a classmate that holds a knife to her throat that is rape. Oh, that is right it is my fault because boys will be boys and I am just a girl that has lesser value in the eyes of the school I guess.
Yes, the schools failed me.

I would like to think that most men do not think that way you do about women, but time and time I asked for help when I was a kid only to be ignored, falsely judged, and blamed. Yes, I wish that I would have been killed in body after the rape. I have been living in hell ever since that gardener had his way with me. I used to listen to Pat Benatars song hell is for children. I could relate to that. That was my life. Yes, I wish that they would have had the mercy to kill my body that day and spared me of all the pain and crap of having to deal with the effects of a violent crime all by myself because no one understood or cared enough to help me. Yes, I am angry.

Dr. Strangelove to be compared to a car you are buying and a new suit is insulting to women. I feel sorry for you that in your mind a woman is no different than a car you are buying.

We are human beings and not property. We are of equal worth or should be. Men and women are different, but we are just as important. One is not worth more in value than the other, or at least that is the way it should be, but to many times that has not been the reality and women and girls have suffered because of people who share your mindset.
Women can be smart. I know I am not smart, but I didn’t have the greatest education and was failed by the schools I attended. Who knows how smart I really am?

There are smart women out there who have made such a difference for good in this world. We have women who have worked hard to become doctors and nurses who travel the world and with their knowledge and skills have saved lives, helped people. We have woman who have worked hard and have become lawyers who are making a difference for good in this world by the work that they do.

We have a woman who is running for President. She is much more than a car or a suit of clothes you are buying. Or even a horse that when you buy you check them out to see if they are healthy. She is smart and I know people who live in New York say she has done wonderful things for her state. They really admire her and love her. If if this is not the year for a woman President I think it is great that a woman is running and that we Democrats have the first woman candidate.

This is 2008 Dr. Strangelove as we women are not going to allow men to disrespect us anymore. Yes, your posts are insulting to women.

Yes, you can call us evil feminazis and think we want to destroy your manhood, but the truth is that we love men and want all people to be treated with respect and given the same opportuny in life.

You wouldn’t understand that because to you and your friends we women are not even people, but are compared to cars and a suit of clothes. I feel sorry for you and people like you Dr. Strangelove, because instead of trying to find a way to make the world a better place you add to the heartache and judgement. What is so scary about the thought that a woman is a human being and might be able to achieve success in the world. Why is it so scary for you to think that all people should be treated with respect and given the same chance to achieve their dream and goals in life?

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