Yes, the so called Religion of PEACE attacks CATHOLICS COMING OUT OF MASS. OH, BUT THAT IS RIGHT WE ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT ISLAM.. WHY IS IT THAT THEY ARE ALLOWED TO ATTACK CATHOLICS/CHRISTIANS AND JEWS AND THE WORLD IS SILENT WHEN IT COMES TO THESE ATTACKS BECAUSE THE ATTACKER IS ISLAM. WE ALL KNOW THAT IF THE VICTIM OF THE ATTACK WAS MUSLIM THAT OBAMA AND THE REST OF THE WORLD WOULD BE OUTRAGED.
MORE DOUBLE STANDARD. I DON’T DO THE HYPROCRIT THING LIKE OBAMA AND THE PROGRESSIVES DO.
There is a lot happening in the news. I read a poll this morning that said 49% of people want Obama IMPEACHED. That is encouraging. Maybe Americans aren’t as stupid as people think they are?
If this is just the tip of the iceburg of criminal behavior on the part of Obama then more people will want him impeached too.
I won’t get my hopes up, as on one news show I was watching they did a sample survey of people and the adults they asked couldn’t even answer who the vice president was or Bengazi. That is who Obama is counting on to keep him in power… These young adults graduated from good school and still they are so uneducated they can’t name the vice president of the UNITED STATES. For young college graduates of ivy league schools, the answer is JOE BIDEN. Elementry school age kids from 5th grade on should know the answer to that question. To get a college degree and not know who the vice president is, is a disgrace to the education system in the united states. The Government should be ashamed of themselves for graduating adults who are so stupid. They aren’t know because it is the stupid and un-informed who voted and continue to keep Obama in power.
For those young people who don’t know what Bengazi is I will give you a summery. Bengazi, Libya is where Ambassador Stevens and three other brave American young men were tortued and murdered by Muslims. Obama knew about the attacks and ordered the armed forces to stand down three times when they had planned to go in and bring help to the Ambassador. Then he fired the Generals who had a problem with just sitting back and watching these men be tortued and murderd by followers of Islam ( you know the religion of PEACE). Then Obama and his Government LIED about what really happen and tried to blame it on some stupid video, and I believe the man who made the video is still in prison… They tried to make him the scape goat.
There are several reasons why this happen and why Obama lied and covered up his role. I won’t go into that but as you can see Obama is an evil man.
To me an evil man is a LEADER OF A NATION who LIES to HIS OWN PEOPLE. Who sits back and watches HIS OWN AMBASSADOR WHO HE APPOINTED TORTUED AND MURDERED AND FIRES THE GENERALS WHO TRY TO GO IN AND SAVE HIM. WHO PRETENDS HE IS SO STUPID THAT HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN HIS OWN GOVERNMENT. I DON’T BUY THE STUPID ACT.
IF HE IS THAT STUPID THEN HE ISN’T SMART ENOUGH TO BE PRESIDENT BECAUSE A PRESIDENT HAS TO BE IN CHARGE AND NOT THERE ALLOWING EVERYONE ELSE RUN THINGS. OBAMA IS NOT AN HONORABLE MAN WHO TAKES RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE ACTIONS OF WHAT PEOPLE UNDER HIM DO IN HIS GOVERNMENT BUT HE THROWS THOSE BELOW HIM IN POWER UNDER THE BUS AND MAKES THEM FALL ON THE SWORD FOR OBAMA. SO HE IS A COWARD AS WELL AS EVIL.
I THINK YOU GOT THE GENERAL IDEA OF WHAT BENGAZI IS.
Get your children out of Public Schools and into Catholic/Private Schools or Homeschool.
Do you want your children to grow into young adults who have a college degree and graduate stupid and ignorant?
To not know who the Vice President, your Congressman, your two Senators, the three branches of Government is a national disgrace. What do they do in American Public Schools? They sure aren’t educating the youth… Yet, I am sure all those young people know the latest Hollywood Gossip is. We have a whole generation of adults now who can’t think for themselves. They don’t know how to think out of the box… They can only repeat what they are told to believe. Obama is counting on them to help him bury the truth.
Thy Word- Amy Grant
I saw her once in concert while living in Salina. She has such a beautiful voice.
I am really getting back into the Word. If we keep our eyes on Jesus and His Word then we will be given the strength we need to survive the difficult times.
Going out to lunch with another friend today.
Remember God is GREATER then OBAMA OR ANYONE IN THE WORLD. OBAMA MIGHT HOLD THE POWER OF THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES, BUT HE ISN’T GOD.
Let me start out by saying my thoughts and prayers are with the people in Moore, OK and all the other communities who are suffering because of tornados. After everything settles I believe one of my causes I will be fighting for in KS is that every school has a safe storm shelter in it and that all communities have a safe storm shelter for people in the community to go too if they don’t have one at their home or if they are caught on the road. That is the future, but now is the time of standing and helping our neighbor and reaching out our hand to help him.
I don’t understand how Democrats like Howard Deen can say with a straight face the things they do. It is like they are afraid to be punish for telling the truth so they play the three monkey’s as I call it. See no evil, hear no evil, and say no evil because if they see or hear the evil then they have to make the choice if they will do the right thing and expose the evil. They are afraid of being punished by Obama so they pretend that he has not committed impeachable crimes like Nixon did.
Yesterday I felt hopeless that there is no reasoning with Democrats because they would rather play the three monkey’s out of fear then ever to face the truth and find the moral courage and strength to stand up and fight for the FIRST AMMENDMENT.
Today I still feel that Democrats will spin the story like they always do to make those of us who believe in the BILL OR RIGHTS and THE CONSITUTION as EVIL PEOPLE who HATE OBAMA NOT BECAUSE OF HIS POLICIES BUT BECAUSE HE IS HALF BLACK. HOGWASH. SPIN, SPIN, SPIN IS ALL WE GET FROM PROGRESSIVES.
The truth will be twisted or denied and once again Obama gets a free pass and so he will continue to do the evil that he has done. Nothing will change. The same ole same ole will continue and Obama and the Democrats will continue to use fear to control people.
I will not be scared in to be silent or obey orders that I feel are morally wrong. Silence in the face of evil is evil and means that you are just as guilty of the evil as the people who commit the evil deed.
I will not be silent. We must speak out and continue to stand for truth, justice, and honor. We must not for the sake of fear allow Obama to silence us. So what if we make his enemy hit list. So what if he uses his full power of Government to target us. So what if he uses drones on us as the next step in his attempt to silence us and get even with us for daring to stand up to his evil lies and actions.
I would like to think that reasonable people of all political views can come together and work for the greater good of the nation, value and honor truth, justice, duty and honor.. Yet every year it gets more and more divided with Democrats cheering the targeting of Conservatives and Conservatives feeling more and more that they can’t trust their own Government. Thank you Obama for your gift of divison and fear to this nation. For making HATE more powerful then LOVE. For making LIES more POWERFUL than TRUTH.
Republicans you are COWARDS. THAT IS WHY I AM NO LONGER A REPUBLICAN. I AM NOT A COWARD AND WON’T BE PART OF A PARTY OF COWARDS.
Democrats are LIARS and Republicans are COWARDS. That is some choice that Americans have to choose from. I believe that more and more people will reject the two main POLITICAL PARTIES and become INDEPENDENT.
Nothing will be done. There will be no impeachment hearings, or select committee. Obama will get his free pass and will continue to target Conservatives, anyone who disagrees with him or makes him angry. Those of us on his hit and target list will continue to distrust him and his Government because we know that he is out to use us as an example of what he will do to those people who speak up and believe in truth. Obama will continue to use his power for evil so he can control the people with fear and they remain silent….
He will continue to target the press that does real reporting and doesn’t allow itself to be used as his tool of lies….
I will never obey you Obama. I will never submit to your will. You will never be my Leader who I obey without question. You can fool some of the people to think you are the GREAT ONE, but NEVER ME.
DEPORT ME TO THE UNITED KINGDOM. I DON’T CARE. THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN’T DO TO ME THAT GOD DOESN’T ALLOW TO HAPPEN. YOU CAN KILL THE BODY BUT YOU CAN NEVER KILL MY SPIRIT, AS THAT BELONGS TO THE LORD JESUS CHRIST. I DON’T WANT TO DIE BUT I AM NOT AFRAID TO DIE. LIKE MANY BRAVE SOULS WHO WERE KILLED IN HISTORY, BECAUSE THEY STOOD FOR TRUTH, HONOR, AND HAD THE MORAL COURAGE TO FIGHT EVIL; I AM WILLING TO FACE MY FATE FOR CHOOSING CHRIST OVER A RULER WHO DOES EVIL.
NOW IS THE TIME PEOPLE MUST CHOOSE WHAT SIDE THEY ARE ON. THERE IS NO MORE BEING IN THE MIDDLE AND REFUSING TO CHOOSE A SIDE. ARE YOU ON THE SIDE OF GOOD OR ARE YOU ON THE SIDE OF EVIL. I CHOOSE THE SIDE OF TRUTH AND HONOR, WHICH IS GOOD. OBAMA HAS CHOSEN THE SIDE OF LIES, DISHONOR, AND EVIL DEEDS, WHICH IS THE SIDE OF EVIL..
Yes, Obama holds the POWER now. We are the a TARGETS now. Yet NOTHING CAN HAPPEN TO US THAT GOD DOESN’T ALLOW TO HAPPEN TO US. WE MUST PUT OUR FAITH IN CHRIST THAT HE IS IN CONTROL OF OUR DESTINY. IF IT IS HIS WILL WE SUFFER FOR DOING RIGHT THEN WE MUST GLADLY SUFFER. IT IT IS HIS WILL WE SUFFER FOR STANDING UP AND TELLING THE TRUTH THEN WE MUST GLADY SUFFER.
I think of the words of what does a man gain if he gains the whole world but looses his soul. I think of Obama. He gained the whole world by being President. He holds the POWER OF BEING PRESIDENT. Yet he has LOST HIS SOUL. IS HE A MAN OF TRUTH? NO, EVEN DEMOCRATS KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE OBAMA LIES. IS OBAMA A MAN WHO VALUES AND ENCOURAGES FREE SPEECH, FREE THOUGHT AND A FREE PRESS? NO, BECAUSE HE TARGETS THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN FREE THOUGHT, FREE SPEECH AND A FREE PRESS WITH EVERY BIT OF THE POWER OF HIS GOVERNMENT. IS OBAMA A MAN WHO VALUES LIFE? WE KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT QUESTION TO IS NO. HE DOESN’T VALUE THE LIFE OF THE LIVING OR THE UNBORN.
Someday future generations are going to look back at this time and ask themselves the same questions that we asked regarding the German people during Nazi Germany. How could the people have been fooled and deceived into voting for Hitler? Future generations are going to ask how could the American people have been so foolish and deceived into voting for Obama twice and allowing him to ABUSE HIS POWER AS PRESIDENT AND DO NOTHING.
Go the distance
I DON’T SERVE OBAMA BUT SERVE THE LORD JESUS CHRIST.
I LIKE TO READ FROM THE JOURNAL OF ST. FAUSTINA KOWALSKA. I PRAY HER DIVINE MERCY PRAYER. JESUS IS OUR STRENGTH AND IF WE CAN KEEP OUR EYES ON HIM AND ALLOW HIM TO SHOW US THE WAY, THEN I BELIEVE THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TO OUR BODIES THAT OUR SPIRITS WILL BE SAFE WITH THE LORD.
SO THAT IS WHY I DON’T FEAR WHAT OBAMA AND HIS GOVERNMENT CAN DO TO ME AS THEY CAN ONLY KILL MY BODY.. MY SPIRIT/SOUL BELONGS TO GOD.
YES, OBAMA AND HIS GOVERNMENT, HIS FOLLOWRS, AND THE WORLD WILL MOCK OUR FAITH.. Yet we must be strong and stand… ONE OF THE HYMNS I LOVED TO SING AS A CHILD WAS ONWARD CHRISTIAN SOLDIERS. I STILL LIKE THAT HYMN. LET US PRAISE THE LORD THAT WE ARE WORTHY TO SUFFER FOR HIM.
I hate to bring this story to light on a day when the Royal Forces of Great Britain are being remembered as the great Forces they are, but I feel sorrow for the United States Navy who has Obama as their Commander in Chief.
These brave men in the Navy Seals deserved better then having a President and Commander and Chief who invites a Islamic Clery to pray for their souls to be damned during their service. Obama is an evil man who karma will bite in the butt someday. He and the Progressives wonder why Americans and ALL PEOPLE OF HONOR HATE HIM ADN WANT TO SPIT ON HIM? OBAMA CONSIDERS HIS OWN BRAVE MEN AND WOMAN OF THE NAVY CANNON FODDER, LIKE HIS FELLOW DEMOCRAT AMBASSADOR WHO HE ALLOWED TO DIE AND ORDERED THE TROOPS TO STAND DOWN TWICE, AND THE OTHER BRAVE MEN WHO WENT TO HELP HIS OWN AMBASSADOR. I FEEL SORRY FOR THE UNITED STATES FORCES WHO HAVE TO SERVE UNDER OBAMA AND A COMMANDER OF CHIEF AND PRESIDENT WHO CONSIDERS THEM NOTHING MORE THEN CANNON FODDER WHO HE CAN ALLOW HIS ISLAMIC FRIENDS TO SAY ISLAMIC PRAYERS TO DAM THEIR SOULS…
OBAMA IS TRULY AND EVIL MAN.
WHY DO YOU THINK I AT 14 CHOSE MY BRITISH SIDE OVER MY AMERICAN SIDE? BECAUSE UNDER NIXON AMERICANS TOO WERE CONSIDERED CANNON FODDER AND WHEN THEY GOT INTO A VERY DANGEROUS SITUATION WERE TOLD IT ISN’T MY PROBLEM BY THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT, WHICH TO ME IS TELLING AMERICANS TO FUCK OFF, AS YOU ARE CANNON FODDER AND MEAN NOTHING TO US AND YOU ARE ACCEPTABLE DAMAGE.
I KNEW IT WAS BETTER TO BE BRITISH THEN AMERICAN AND THAT THE BRITISH GOVERNMENT WAS THE BEST GOVERNMENT IN THE WORLD BECAUSE WHILE THE AMERICANS TOLD MY DAD FUCK YOU THE BRITS SAVED HIM BECAUSE HE WAS BRITISH. HE MAY HAVE BEEN BORN IN MASSACHUSETTS, BUT BOTH HIS PARENTS WERE BRITISH WHICH MAKES MY DAD BRITISH AND MAKES ME BRITISH TOO.
IF YOU ARE AN YOUNG AMERICAN DON’T JOIN UP TO SERVE IN THE MILITARY UNDER OBAMA. YOU ARE NOTHING TO HIM BUT CANNON FODDER AND WHEN YOU DIE IN THE SERVICE OF YOUR COUNTRY HE WILL HAVE AN ISLAMIC CLERGY DAM YOUR SOUL TOO.. INSTEAD OF BEING HONORED OBAMA WILL HAVE YOUR SOUL DAMNED BY THE MUSLIMS. OBAMA AS PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES IS WORTH DEFENDING AND DYING FOR. WHY RISK BEING KILLED FOR A LEADER WHO DOESN’T VALUE YOUR LIFE AND VIEWS YOU AS CANNON FODDER AND PUTS HIS ISLAMIC FRIENDS BEFORE YOU. OBAMA MAY DENY HE IS MUSLIM, BUT HIS ACTIONS SPEAK SO MUCH LOUDER THEN HIS WORDS. WHY THE MUSLIM PRAYERS FOR NON MUSLIMS? WHY DOES OBAMA HAVE MUSLIMS DAM THE SOULS OF HIS OWN NAVY SEALS?
I AM NOT STUPID LIKE THE MAIN STREAM MEDIA IN THIS COUNTRY WHO CONTINUES TO LIE AND COVER UP FOR THIS EVIL PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES.
I AM STILL IN AZ, SO I AM STILL SPEAKING ON THE POLITICAL SIDE OF AMERICA. THOUGH EVEN WHEN I AM IN KS I WILL SPEAK OUT ON SOMETHING AS IMPORTANT AS THIS.
THE LORD REMINDED ME THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP REALLY ANGRY AND HOLDING HATE IN MY HEART TOWARD OBAMA AND HIS EVIL DEEDS TO HIS OWN PEOPLE THAT VENGENCE IS MINE SAYS THE LORD.
I REMEMBER HITLER VIEWED HIS PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER TOO. HE HAD NO COMPASSION OR EVEN CARED THAT THEY WERE BEING SLAUGHTERD OR THAT LITTLE CHILDREN WERE FIGHTING IN THE FORCES AND WERE BEING SENT TO THEIR DEATHS FOR HIM. ALBERT SPEER DISOBEYED ORDERS FROM HITLER TO DESTROY THE INFRA-STRUCTURE OF GERMANY. HE TOLD HITLER THAT THE GERMAN PEOPLE WERE HIS PEOPLE AND HE WAS THEIR LEADER, AND HITLER WOULD SAY THEY DIDN’T DESERVE TO LIVE.. HE DIDN’T CARE ABOUT THE WELFARE OF HIS OWN PEOPLE. OBAMA DOESN’T CARE ABOUT THE WELFARE OF HIS OWN PEOPLE TOO.
HE ALLOWS A FELLOW DEMOCRAT AMBASSADOR TO BE BRUTALLY MURDERED AND ORDERS THE FORCES TO STAND DOWN TWICE AND SAYS IT IS AN ACCEPTABLE BUMP IN THE ROAD. HE HAS NO COMAPSSION FOR THE MAN’S FAMILY AND VIEWS HIM AS ACCEPTABLE DAMAGE AND CANNON FODDER. HE VIEWS THE PEOPLE WHO DIED WITH THAT AMBASSADOR IN LIBYA AS CANNON FODDER TOO AND LIES TO THE FAMILY AND THE AMERICAN PEOPLE. HIS ELECTION IS MORE IMPORTANT THEN THE LIVES OF HIS OWN PEOPLE. HE ALLOWS MUSLIM CLERGY TO DAM THE SOULS OF THE NAVEL SEALS WHO DIED AT THEIR SERVICE. SO THAT TELLS ME HE AGREES WITH THE MUSLIMS WHO DAMNED THESE BRAVE MEN TO HELL… THEY ARE OBAMA’S OWN FORCES AND HE HAS THE MUSLIM CLERGY DAMN THEIR SOULS TO HELL. TELL ME WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN OBAMA AND HITLER. THEY BOTH DO NOT REGARD THE LIVES OF THEIR OWN PEOPLE THEY LEAD.
DON’T DIE FOR OBAMA BECAUSE IF YOU DIE UNDER HIS WATCH AS COMMANDER IN CHIEF, HE WILL HAVE THE MUSLIM CLERGY DAMN YOUR SOUL TO HELL, AND GIVE PRAYERS AT YOUR SERVICE, WHEN YOU ARE NOT EVEN MUSLIM. OBAMA ISN’T WORTH RISKING YOUR LIFE TO PROTECT. OBAMA ISN’T WORTH DYING FOR. IT IS A GOOD THINK I AM NOT IN THE UNITED STATES FORCES OR THE SECRET SERVICE BECAUSE I WOULDN’T DIE FOR OBAMA. I WOULDN’T TAKE THE BULLET FOR OBAMA LIKE I WOULD THE QUEEN OR THE PRIME MINISTER OF GREAT BRITAIN.
THE BRITISH GOVERNMENT AND LEADERS DON’T VIEW THE BRITISH FORCES OR THE BRITISH PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER THAT IS ACCEPTABLE DAMAGE. THEY ARE NOT LIKE OBAMA WHO WOULD HAVE MUSLIM CLERGY AT THE SERVICE OF ROYAL NAVY MEN WHO DIED IN THE SERVICE OF THEIR NATION PRAY THAT THE SOULS OF THESE BRAVE MEN BE DAMNED TO HELL.
YES, KARMA WILL COME UPON YOU MR. PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES, AS YOU CAN’T RUN FROM KARMA AND JUDGMENT. NIXON COULDN’T RUN FROM HIS JUDGMENT AND EITHER CAN YOU. YOU MIGHT NOT FACE IT RIGHT NOW BUT YEARS FROM NOW, BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL FACE THE JUDGMENT OF GOD FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE AND CONTINUE TO DO AS PRESIDENT, SENATOR, AND A MAN.
YOU CAN KILL THE BODY OF A PERSON, BUT NOT THEIR SOUL. OTHER PEOPLE MIGHT BE AFRAID OF YOU AND TO TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT YOU, BUT I AM NOT, BECAUSE THE TRUTH AND HAVING THE MORAL COURAGE TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND SPEAK AND FIGHT FOR THOSE WHO CAN’T SPEAK OR FIGHT FOR THEMSELVES IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ME.
YOU ARE NOT MY PRESIDENT AND YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME. YOU ARE JUST AN EVIL MAN WHO DOES EVIL IN THE WORLD. YOU ARE THE ENEMY OF ANYTHING DECENT IN THIS WORLD. SOMEDAY WHEN TRUTH IS IMPORTANT AGAIN AND VALUED IN THE WORLD YOU WILL BE THE MOST HATED PRESIDENT.. GEORGE WASHINGTON WILL BE THE MOST ADMIRED AND YOU MR PRESIDENT OBAMA WILL BE THE MOST HATED FOR HOW YOU VIEWED YOUR OWN PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER.
YOU ADMIRE YOUR FATHER AS I ADMIRE MINE. YOU HATE US BRITS.. THAT IS WHY YOU COULDN’T STAND TO HAVE THE BUST OF CHURCHILL ON AMERICAN SOIL. YOU WILL NEVER BE THE GREAT LEADER OR MAN THAT CHURCHILL WAS. YOU WILL NOT EVEN BE THE GREAT LEADER THAT AMERICAN PRESIDENTS WERE BEFORE YOU. YOU LIKE TO BLAME EVERYTHING ON GEORGE W BUSH, WELL BUSH II AND BUSH I WILL BE MORE LOVED AND RESPECTED THEN YOU WILL EVER BE OBAMA. AT LEAST THEY DIDN’T LOOK AT THEIR OWN PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER AND THEY WOULD NEVER HAVE ORDERED THEIR FORCES TO STAND DOWN TWICE AND THEN PUNISH THE PEOPLE WHO WANTED TO HELP THE AMBASSADOR.. YOUR AMBASSADOR REQUESTED HELP MANY TIMES AND HIS REQUESTS WERE IGNORED WHICH TO ME IS TELLING YOUR OWN FELLOW DEMOCRAT AND AMBASSADOR TO FUCK OFF.
THE TRUTH ALWAYS COMES OUT MR PRESIDENT OBAMA. YOU CAN TRY AND HIDE AND COVER IT UP, BUT THE TRUTH ALWAYS COMES OUT IN THE END. IT MIGHT NOT BE IN YOUR LIFETIME, BUT THE TRUTH WILL COME OUT AND YOU CAN’T HIDE FROM THE FALLOUT OF THAT TRUTH.
YES, I AM ANGRY BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT ANGER AND HATE ONLY HURT ME SO GOD IS REMINDING ME TO LET GOD DEAL WITH OBAMA…. I AM JUST TO MOVE TO THE COUNTRY AND FOCUS ON MY OWN RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND TRYING TO BE A BETTER CHRISTIAN… I KNOW THAT GOD WILL DEAL WITH OBAMA AT SOME POINT.
I AM LIKE THE TURTLE AND I AM GOING INTO MY TURTLE SHELL. I CAN’T CHANGE ANYTHING BECAUSE WE THE PEOPLE HAVE NO SAY IN WHAT OBAMA AND THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT DOES. THEY DON’T VALUE US OR REPRESENT US. TO THEM WE ARE ACCEPTABLE DAMAGE AND CANNON FODDER. THEY LIE TO US AND ONLY VALUE THOSE WHO HAVE A LOT OF MONEY TO GIVE TO THEIR PAC GROUPS. THEY SELL THEIR SOULS TO THE HIGHEST BIDDER.
THEY ARE NO LONGER THE GOVERNMENT OF OUR ANCESTORS.. THEY HAVE BETRAYED THE AMERICAN PEOPLE… I DON’T HONOR THEM, TRUST THEM, RESPECT THEM OR HAVE FAITH IN THEM. I WILL NOT PLEDGE MY HEART TO AN EVIL GOVERNMENT WHO VIEWS ITS OWN PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER. NOW IS THE TIME TO CHOOSE WHO YOU WILL SERVE. YOU CAN’T SERVE THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT AND BE AN HONEST MAN AND WOMAN OF MORAL COURAGE. YOU CAN’T SERVE GOD OR THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT.. YOU MUST CHOOSE. I CHOOSE GOD. I KNOW PEOPLE WILL LAUGH AND MOCK ME FOR DARING TO SAY THIS. IF WE REALLY RESPECT AND HONOR LIFE AS A NATION AND GOVERNMENT THEN WE DON’T TREAT OUR OWN PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER AND REFUSE THEM HELP.. AND WE DON’T HAVE MUSLIM CLERGY CONDEMN OUR OWN NAVY SEALS TO HELL AT A MEMORAL SERVICE. THEIR LIVES WEREN’T VALUED. THEY WERE ACCEPTABLE DAMAGE AND THEN ADD THE LIES AND COVER UP OF THE PRESIDENT AND HIS GOVERNMENT.
I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT I DON’T WANT TO BE PART OF A GOVERNMENT WHO CONSIDERS PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER. I AM A HUMAN BEING AS WERE THE AMBASSADOR AND THE MEN WHO DIED WITH HIM AND THE NAVY SEALS.
I AM SURPRISED MORE PEOPLE ARE NOT ANGRY WITH THE TRUTH THAT HAS BEEN COMING OUT. BUT I GUESS THEY SEE NOTHING WRONG WITH THE ACTIONS OF OBAMA AND HIS GOVERNMENT IN HOW LITTLE REGARD HE HAS SHOWN IN REGARDS TO HIS AMBASSADOR AND THE DEATHS OF THE BRAVE MEN WHO FOUGHT ALONG SIDE OF HIM BECAUSE IT WAS THE RIGHT THING TO DO, WHEN MR. PRESIDENT ORDERS THE TROOPS TO STAND DOWN TWICE AND TOLD THE AMBASSADOR TO FUCK OFF. OR THE WAY HE HAS TREATED THE NAVY SEALS IN HAVING A MUSLIM CLERGY CONDEMN THEIR SOULS TO HELL AT THE MEMORIAL SERVICE WHEN THE NAVY SEALS WERE NOT MUSLIM. I GUESS THAT IS THE NEW NATIONAL RELIGION NOW AND AT ALL STATE SERVICE WE WILL HAVE MUSLIM CLERGY DAMNING US IN THEIR OWN LANGUAGE… IF OBAMA WASN’T A MUSLIM THEN WHY WOULD HE ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN?
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME VENT SOME OF MY ANGER AND DISGUST AT OBAMA AND THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT.
THANK GOD THE BRITISH GOVERNMENT IS 1000000 TIMES BETTER THEN THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT. PEOPLE WHINE AND COMPLAIN ABOUT PM DAVID CAMERON BUT DAVID CAMERON DOESN’T VIEW THOSE WHO WORK IN THIS GOVERNMENT AS CANNON FODDER AND JUST LEAVE THEM TO DIE WHEN THEY ARE BEING ATTACKED AND HE WOULD NEVER ORDER THE BRITISH FORCES TO STAND DOWN AND JUST WATCH HIS OWN AMBASSADOR BE KILLED AS WELL AS THE MEN WITH HIM. HE WOULD NEVER ALLOW MUSLIM CLERGY TO CONDEMN IN PRAYER TO HELL SPECIAL FORCES OF THE ROYAL NAVY. I SUPPORT DAVID CAMERON AND KNOW HE REALLY CARES ABOUT THE ROYAL FORCES OF GREAT BRITAIN.
Good morning. I have empowerment group so I will have to take a break from watching the hearing today. I remember the Watergate Hearings. Obama is much worst then Nixon. Karma is a bitch. All of Obama’s lies and disregard of the lives of American Citizens will come back on him at some point.
Men and women like Obama who sell their souls for money and power may gain the whole world for a time, but in the end they loose it all. Karma is a bitch. Have they really gained anything when they might have money and power but people don’t respect them? That people know the truth about them and don’t believe a word they say? Have you really gained anything when in order to achieve your political power and money you have to betray your nation and people?
Democrats will only be able to defend Obama for so long before karma comes to bite them on the butt too. Obama is the only one who could order the troops to stand down. He allowed his own man to be killed and did nothing. Are Democrats safe, because Obama betrayed his own Democrat Ambassador who called for help and his requests were denied. The Generals who wanted to help them were fired? Of course the Democrat Congressman I know in life and I ask to help me once treated me with the same compassion that obama treated his own Democrat Ambassador. You see we the people are cannon fodder and acceptable damage and our lives mean nothing. Birds of a feather stick together. He supported Obama like the good Democrat he is. So he must support Obama’s actions and lack of actions. Karma is a bitch. I look forward to seeing karma bite these two Democrats.
Republicans are going to face some KARMA too. Jeff Flake is another one who has to face Karma for lying to the people of AZ so that he get elected; only to find that he was just another lying scum bag. John McCain has karma coming his way for the same reason as Flake..
I can’t stand both the Dems or the GOP. Both Parties LIE and are CORRUPTED.
Will this be the beginning of Obama’s downfall as Watergate was the beginning of Nixon’s downfall? Time will tell. At some point Obama will have to face judgment for his EVIL DEEDS. As all the POLITICAL LEADERS who LIE, CORRUPTED, AND HAVE BETRAYED THE AMERICAN PEOPLE for their POWER AND MONEY.
I don’t care anymore.
I don’t care anymore about the fate of those Political Leaders in the United States Government.
I care about the American people, as they are the ones being screwed by their own Government.
I will sit back and watch you evil, lying, and corrupt Political Leaders self destruct as KARMA BITES YOU IN THE BUTT.
THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN SAY THAT WOULD MAKE ME BELIEVE A WORD YOU SAY!!!!!! THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO THAT WOULD MAKE ME BELIEVE THAT YOU CARE ABOUT THE AMERICAN PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY SHOULD I VOTE AND BE ACTIVE IN A SYSTEM THAT ONLY LIES TO YOU AND WHEN YOU ARE IN DANGER TELLS YOU TO FUCK OFF? WHEN YOU INGORE THEIR CRIES AND REQUEST FOR HELP YOU ARE TELLING THEM TO FUCK OFF. WHEN YOU SIT AND WATCH THEM SUFFER, BE ABUSED AND EVEN KILLED YOU ARE TELLING THEM TO FUCK OFF. SO IS IT ANY WONDER THAT AMERICANS NOW ARE TELLING YOU TO FUCK OFF, BY NOT BELIEVING A WORD YOU SAY OR TRUSTING YOU?
WE DON’T FEEL IT DOES ANY GOOD TO VOTE BECAUSE OUR VOTE DOESN’T COUNT. WE HAVE BEEN LIED TO SO MANY TIMES, THAT IT MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE TO BELIEVE THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT TELLS THE TRUTH.
I am busy trying to get packed and ready to go. I have sorted out my inner self and now I am sorting out my outer self. Leting go of the toxic and opening myself up to what is really important and lasting.
Truth is never found in POLITICAL LEADERS OF THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT WHO VIEW THE AMERICAN PEOPLE AS CANNON FODDER. TRUTH IS IN GOD, BUT THAT IS RIGHT IF ONE IS A CHRISTIAN SERVING IN OUR MILITARY HE CAN BE COURT MARSHALLED FOR SHARING HIS FAITH, WHILE OUR PRESIDENT ALLOWS RADICAL ISLAM TO SHARE THEIR FAITH. OBAMA THINKS WE ARE STUPID. WE ARE NOT… WE SEE THE DOUBLE STANDARD. YES, THERE COULD COME A DAY IN AMERICA WHERE ONE WILL BE FORCED TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THEIR CATHOLIC/CHRISTIAN FAITH OR BEING PUT IN PRISION FOR DARING TO STAND UP AND CHOOSING YOUR FAITH. I KNOW WHO I WILL CHOOSE AND IT WILL NOT BE OBAMA. SO IF OBAMA WANTS TO KILL ME FOR MY CHRISTIAN FAITH, GO AHEAD. IF HE WANTS TO KILL ME BECAUSE I REFUSE TO BOW DOWN AND WORSHIP HIM AS A GREAT LEADER THEN SO BE IT. OBAMA AND THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT CAN KILL MY BODY BUT THEY CAN NEVER TAKE MY SOUL. MY SOUL BELONGS TO GOD.
YOU SEE I WOULD RATHER DIE THEN TO LIVE UNDER OBAMA AND HIS EVIL GOVERNMENT.
I KNOW PEOPLE DON’T LIKE IT WHEN I SAY FUCK YOU TO OBAMA, BUT I SAY FUCK YOU OBAMA FOR YOUR LETTING THOSE AMERICANS BEING MURDERED, FOR ALL YOUR LIES, AND EVIL DEEDS.
Will continue to work on getting things sorted and get everything ready for the move. It is starting to get really hot here so am happy that I have less then a month to go.
I have a good friend moving to VA this weekend. She is happy to be getting out of the AZ heat too. She will like VA as it is very beautiful there. Wish her a safe trip. I know she will be very happy..
I started to binge eat yesterday, but that is because of emotions. Why is it that some men think they can get women to send them money or expensive items by sweet talking them? I have fallen for those tricks before and aren’t falling for them again. They think that by saying I love you to an ugly girl that she will give them material goods.
They act like they like you and you can trust them and then will you buy me this or that?
I know I am not beautiful. Never was and never will be. I am ok with that and can live with not having a man in my life. I would love to find the right man and find true love.. Every human being alive on the planet would like to love and be loved unconditionally and have someone to walk along side of in this life. I am no different and have those same feelings. Maybe someday I will meet a man that is not the most handsome man on the planet but who has a good heart and is honest and is ok with a woman who is not the most beautiful woman on the planet who has a good heart and is honest?
I am not going to buy a man!!!! If one has to buy a man so they are not alone in this life, then there is no real love between them. I would rather have five minutes of a true relationship then 5 years in a relationship based on you having the money to buy the man the material goods he wants or a one way ticket to America because he is trying to flee Greece.
Where I am going, I think I will have a better selection of men to choose from. Those who love horses and we can race each other on horses and even 4 wheel drives.. My horses Jet and Tia were really fast. I thought about racing someone on a 4 wheeler once and asked how fast he thought his 4 wheeler would go. Who love dirt bikes and don’t mind getting dirty. There will be country men where I am moving too that like pick up trucks and getting mud on the tires, lol..
Who likes country living better then city living. Who would rather be out in the middle of no where so you can see the stars and the moon in the night sky without a lot of city lights getting in the way. Who like camping and being outdoors enjoying nature then being stuck in some city that is smelly, noisy, and people can’t relax because they are always in a hurry to get somewhere else..
If someone can’t see that beauty on the inside makes a person beautiful on the outside, then he isn’t worthy of me. I have a heart of Gold and a beautiful smile and that inner beauty makes me beautiful on the outside.
Some women can be the most beautiful person on the outside but inside have no heart. They are ugly inside and that at some point makes them ugly on the outside. I would think men would rather be with someone who is beautiful on the inside who they know will treat them right, then someone who is a beauty on the outside only?
Maybe it is only me, but I would rather be with a man who is handsome on the inside and I know will treat me right then someone who is handsome only on the outside and inside is an ugly person because he has no heart.
Janis Ian- At Seventeen
Old song, but it fit the mood I am in today.
One of the goals I am working on in empowerment group is to be able to look in a mirror and think I look good in an outfit.
I like the line in the song where she says that dreams were all they gave to ugly girls like me. That is true.
It is American men who have my whole life made me feel I was to ugly to love. The British men have always made me feel pretty in their eyes, but I guess it is because I look like my British Grandmum so my looks appeal more to Brits then Americans. I keep on hoping that there are American men who can value me for the woman I am.
I love British men, because they look at the whole package. American men I have known in my life in a romantic way only look at the outside. I remember listening to them whining about being hurt by women who were beautiful on the outside but just using them for money and material things. Yet, the women who are not as pretty but have a beautiful heart and would treat them right and be good helpmates in life are left sitting at home,as American men want the beauty queen over the nice girl who would make them happy because she loves them for who they are as people and not what material things they can give her.
I had a chance to be loved by a nice guy who was in England. We both have the English look so to me he was handsome and to him I was pretty. Yet, him being in Surry and me being in America stopped us from going to the next level. I think that is one reason my mother wanted me to go to the UK and spend some time… I haven’t given up that dream, as it would be nice to spend time with my own people of my own heritage and culture.
The Daughters of the British Empire have a nice and active chapter in KS so I am going to try and rejoin them as it will be nice to meet and spend time with other British woman.. Plus they help the British Vets, which is very important to me.
I am not going to be rejoining the Daughters of the American Revolution as I don’t fit in with them. I can’t support the United States Government so I am not going to pretend that I have a love fest when I think the American Government is corrupted and full of lying scum bags. I have good reason to not think highly of those who serve in the United States Government, which in turns makes me think badly of the United States Government. If the men who serve in them are evil men, then the Government is evil, isn’t it?
People can only get away with lying and corruption for so long, before good people know they can’t trust them or their government.
The Government today is not the same Government my ancestors on my mother’s side founded.
Jackson Browne- For A Dancer
Need a little Jackson Browne this morning. I wore out this album too along with For Everyman at St Francis as Anne and I both loved Jackson Browne and his music really spoke what was in our hearts…
I wish I didn’t care about Joe so much. I tell myself I don’t care and can walk away and not look back, but I find it is just lying to myself. I DO CARE that because he didn’t really talk to me and give me a chance to prove I was the one telling the truth; that I was not able to bring much needed resources to my FIGHT AGAINST WHITE NATIONALISM. I DO CARE THAT WE FAILED and because of that FAILURE, White Nationalists are growing in numbers…
I WISH I COULD HAVE FOUND AN EFFECTIVE WAY TO COMMUNICATE WITH JOE SO HE UNDERSTOOD THE TRUTH AND WANTED TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND HELP THIS LADY IN DISTRESS. YET, DID JOE REALLY WANT TO SEE THE TRUTH? OR WAS IT EASIER TO PRETEND THAT THE LIES WERE THE TRUTH? AS IT WAS EASIER FOR HIM? SOMETIMES HAVING TO FACE THE TRUTH AND SEE THE TRUTH MEANS YOU HAVE TO MAKE A CHOICE BETWEEN DOING THE RIGHT THING MORALLY, WHICH CAN BE A DIFFICULT PATH; OR PRETENDING THE LIES ARE TRUTH AND TO TAKE THE EASY PATH OF DOING NOTHING.
Hoping that with time, I can come to accept my failure and Joe’s failure..
Maybe with time I can let some other man into my heart and I can love him uncondtionally like I love Joe as my friend? I hope so as I have a lot of quality love to give and would make someone a very LUCKY MAN. AS I WOULD LOVE HIM LIKE HE HAS NEVER BEEN LOVED BEFORE.
Keep on trying to open up and give some other man the chance to WIN MY HEART.
Maybe when I get to the country I will meet a guy who likes to ride horses and country living as much as I do?
Helen asked me why I started to fight WHITE NATIONALISM? I said because of the SEED Joe’s father planted inside of me when I was a little girl. That seed bore the fruit of me knowing I had a moral imperative to fight WHITE NATIONALISTS AND THEIR NEO NAZI HATE.
Talking about childhood dreams and goals, I haven’t shared with anyone yet, but mine was to work for the government and join forces with my hero’s son, and work together as one team… I thought together we made a strong team. He is a powerful speaker while because of the PTSD I have trouble communicating my thoughts and feelings. He would be the voice.. I would be his Celtic muse and help him be the best he could be. I am not stupid.
The way I feel about the American Government now, makes it impossible for me to ever want to work or help them. Joe isn’t the only reason I feel betrayed by the United States Government. Joe is just the icing on the cake. What they did to my father under Nixon is the cake.
The only Government I want to work for now is the British Government. I am not in the UK at this time,so that is unlikely.
Helen asked me how I woke up to the truth about White Nationalism. I told her that Joe brother Max wrote a book of quotes that their dad, my hero, loved. It woke me up. The funny thing is that I started to post and read them to other White Nationalists as I was pondering them. I didn’t tell who said the quotes or where I got them as I knew that it would shut their minds to thinking about them… Everyone who received those quotes and really thought about them, left White Nationalism too.
I had forgotten what my dad and Joe’s dad had taught me as a child. I believe we all do things for a reason and I believe God wanted Max to write that book, as God knew that it would be a tool for good in this life.
Today I am thinking what would my hero want me to do? I know the saying of what would Jesus want me to do, and I am not saying my hero is like God. I am just pondering what his thoughts would be… That is normal to think about what people you admire would think of situations in life. I also am thinking what would my hero Margret Thatcher want me to do.
She was a strong woman who wasn’t afraid to fight. She had courage… She didn’t quit. I don’t like quiting and letting go either, but does there come a time, when we must face the truth, that no matter how hard we try that there will never be victory? I feel that way with Joe and his family, that no matter how hard I try to make them understand the truth and try to talk to them about White Nationalism, that all I am ever going to get is silence and hitting my head on a brick wall, because there is no door or window on that wall.
Joe’s father didn’t like to quit either. We both share the quality of passion and admire people of courage…
How do I give up on my friend? How do I accept that he will never talk to me? How do I accept that he doesn’t care to fight against White Nationalism and neo nazi hate along side of me?
White Nationalists I didn’t fail because of my lack of courage, but because I don’t have the resources to fight you. If a certain friend of my past would find it in his heart to talk to me and decide to join my fight against you, then I would be able to continue my FIGHT against you.
I have a lot to do today… Slowly I will work through my PTSD.
Good morning. Hope everyone has a great day. Gooing to start with a song.
The Highway Don’t Care
Really love this song. I was lucky to see Tim McGraw in concert with my sister one year and he was great. Taylor Swift I really don’t care for, but I think in this song she sounds good. She tends to be to teeny bopper to me. Glad to see she is singing an adult song and not singing about her ex boyfriends… lol..
She is coming to concert here and the kids have already bought out all the tickets, so that is good. The children have their groups and singers that they like. I was crazy about Barry Cowsil and the Cowsils. I saw them in concert in 1968. Back then Barry or his brother John were on the cover of 16 mag. Bobby Sherman was also popular at that time. Taylor like Barry Cowsil and his family are talented musicans. People make jokes about their talent, but they started out as kids and as they continued with their music developed into song writers that were able to put their message into music.
Sadly Barry Cowsil died in 2005 in New Orleans during Katrina. But both Barry and his brother Bill who is also dead were very talented musicans who were never taken as seriously as they should have been. Taylor seems to be doing a better job of being accepted as an adult then Barry Cowsil did.
Barry Cowsil and the Cowsil in Going Home. One thing I loved about Barry Cowsil was his humor. Some very funny parts. Great song and it shows his talent. Love it when they go home to Fenway Park. They were from New England, Rhode Island, so going home for them was going back to New England.
Barry Cowsil-Some Good Years
Tim McGraw- One of Those Nights.
Great song.
My session with Helen went ok. We talked about my feelings toward the United States Government. I was telling her they don’t exist for me. I turn them off as they lie and are corrupted. I am not angry nor to I hate, but I just ignore them. Can’t trust them, respect them or even have faith at them.. The love I felt under President Kennedy died under Johnson/Nixon and all the rest.
Joe is part of the reason but not the whole reason. What happen to my dad under Nixon when he went for help to the United States Government when he was in Asia and told F you by the government, when they refused to help him played a bigger role. Joe was just the icing on the cake. Sadly Joe has to be part of restoring my trust, faith and respect and even love in the United States Government again. Since I don’t believe he will ever find the courage or compassion to face me and talk to me Catholic to Catholic where we tell each other the truth, and knowing the other person will not use it against us, I don’t hold my breath that I will ever feel toward the United States Government as I did under President Kennedy.
At 14 I learned that it was better to be British then American. That it was better to hold a British Passport then American. That my loyality and love are for the British Government that SAVED my dad, because he was half British because of his parents ( my grandparents).. If it was you, don’t tell me you wouldn’t pick the British Government over the American Government.. If it was the Americans who told her dad f you and refused to save him and it was the Brits who saved his life, you too would love and be more loyal to the British Government.
I don’t dislike Obama as a man but the office he holds. I don’t like any President of the United States since President Kennedy.
We are working on goals. My virtues of truth, courage, honor, and duty are very important to me. As a child, before Johnson and Nixon and all the rest up until today, I thought one could hold those virtues and work in Government. I guess I thought men of moral character like George Washington still existed in the United States Government. I WAS WRONG.
The virtues in the American Government are LYING, CORRUPTION, DISHONOR, AND BETRAYAL. THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT THE PEOPLE. WE ARE ACCEPTABLE DAMAGE TO THEM. WHILE THE BRITS CARE ABOUT THEIR SUBJECTS AND SAVE THEM WHEN THEY ARE IN DANGER AND GIVE THEM A HELPING HAND, THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT TELLS THEIR CITIZENS F YOU. IT ISN’T MY PROBLEM AND ALLOW YOU TO BE KILLED OR SUFFER. WORKING IN GOVERNMENT IS NO LONGER AN OPTION FOR ME, AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE. SINCE JOE WILL NEVER FACE THE TRUTH THAT HE WAS A TERRIBLE CONGRESSMAN WHO MADE A BIG MISTAKE AND WANTS TO TALK TO ME CATHOLIC TO CATHOLIC WITH THE GOAL OF MAKING PEACE BETWEEN US, MY FAITH, TRUST, RESPECT AND LOVE WILL NOT BE RESTORED.
Need more music..
George Strait- Heartland
cross my heart
Someday some wonderful man who I can love uncondtionally will love me uncondtionally too. Then we both will be blessed with what is really important in this life. Uncondtional love is more valuable then riches, power, or fame….
I am moving back to the Heartland and to the country. It was good to see my good friend who I have known for years. We both have really missed each other. She has a couple of horses and her grandson wants to start 4H so I told her I will help him learn about horses. I will be able to start riding again. Those who know me in person know I love horses and being in the saddle riding.
I will be at peace and will just sit back and watch things unfold.. Whatever happens happens.
I am not going to continue to hit my head against the brick wall that I keep finding, because Joe and those who have his power, don’t care about learning about White Nationalism… Yes, I was right to start fighting them and to seek help from someone who acted and pretended to be my friend. HOW CAN I CONTINUE TO FIGHT WHEN NO ONE GIVES A DAMN AND I HAVE NO RESOURCES TO FIGHT WITH? I am not insane. I am strong willed and DON’T LIKE TO GIVE UP, but even I HAVE TO FACE THE TRUTH AT SOME POINT THAT I FALED!!!!!!!!!!!! I FAILED BECAUSE I COULDN’T NOT COMMUICATE IN SUCH A WAY AS TO MAKE JOE AND HIS FAMILY UNDERSTAND THE TRUTH.. PTSD IS A TERRIBLE DISEASE BECAUSE YOU CAN’T SAY THE THINGS YOU NEED AND WANT TO SAY. I take and accept my fault in the failure of not being effective in the FIGHT AGAINST WHITE NATIONALISM….
I AM NOT GOING TO CONTINUE TO FIGHT ALONE, WITHOUT HELP AND RESOURCES…
So you White Nationalists win and are free to continue work toward your goals. Know that my failure to gain much needed support in the fight is because I couldn’t communicate in an effective way to make Joe understand. It wasn’t from my lack of trying or because I was afraid to fight you. I still have the courage to fight, but don’t have the resources.
Have to think about getting ready for my enpowerment group.
John, I am not approving your comment. I have posted before that I have moved forward in life and leaving the past behind. I am letting go of Joe and my fight against WHITE NATIONALISM.
I CAN’T FIGHT YOU GUYS ALONE, AND I ACCEPT JOE WILL NEVER BE MAN ENOUGH TO FACE ME AND TALK TO ME CATHOLIC TO CATHOLIC AND DO THE RIGHT THING. THE CALVERY IS NOT COMING NOR BRINGING MUCH NEEDED RESOURCES TO FIGHT YOU WHITE NATIONALISTS FROM ACHIEVING YOUR GOALS… I ACCEPT DEFEAT… YOU WIN BECAUSE JOE AND I COULDN’T COMMUNICATE WITH EACH OTHER. HE REFUSES TO BE A REAL MAN ADMIT HE WAS WRONG TO TREAT ME THE WAY HE DID AND BECAUSE OF THE PTSD I COULDN’T MAKE HIM UNDERSTAND THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As I let go of Joe and accept that I WAS WRONG TO EVER THINK THAT HE WAS A MAN OF HONOR AND TRUTH, AND HAD THE COURAGE TO FIGHT AGAINST EVIL. I also let go of my FIGHT against you WHITE NATIONALISTS. I TRIED TO GO TO HIM FOR HELP WHEN HE WAS A CONGRESSMAN AND WAS TOLD, WITHOUT HIM ASKING ONE QUESTION, ” IT ISN’T MY PROBLEM”. Isn’t great JOE is SO SMART, that he can KNOW WHAT KIND OF HELP I WAS NEEDING AND ASKING HIM FOR WITHOUT ONE QUESTION BEING ASKED. Joe was not being smart but being ARROGANT AND A JERK. Do I add idiot?
So because of JOE and I you White Nationalists get a free pass…
I am moving to the country and just going to live life and let go of the PAST.. YOU WHITE NATIONALISTS ALONG WITH JOE ARE JUST PART OF THE NIGHTMARE I WANT TO WAKE UP FROM.
I am healing from the PTSD and LETTING GO OF THE PAIN…
I CAN ACCEPT THAT I FAILED IN TRYING TO GET HELP IN FIGHTING WHITE NATIONALISM…. I TRIED TO DO THE RIGHT THING SO I CAN LIVE WITH MYSELF. JOE IS THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF HIMSELF FOR REFUSING TO HELP A LADY IN DISTRESS, WHO WAS TRYING TO DO THE RIGHT THING IN FIGHTING WHITE NATIONALIST NEO NAZI HATE. OUR FAILURE TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND FIGHT YOU WHITE NATIONALISTS IS ON JOE AND NOT ME.
Will JOE ever have the COURAGE to FACE ME and TALK TO ME? I DOUBT IT.
Back to listening to country. This song was playing as I was driving on the highways this past week.
There is no GOING BACK for me. It doesn’t matter that I love Joe uncondtionally as my friend… The truth is that he is not worthy of my friendship… If he had been a true friend he would have asked me WHAT KIND OF HELP DO YOU NEED? or WHAT IS WRONG? TO JUST SAY ” IT ISN’T MY PROBLEM” without ASKING ONE QUESTION, SHOWS HE HAD NO REAL FEELINGS OF FRIENDSHIP FOR ME…
I WAS IN DENAIL ALL THESE YEARS BECAUSE I DIDN’T WANT TO FAIL… TO ADMIT TO MYSELF THAT I FAILED IN GETTING HELP IN THE FIGHT AGAINST YOU WHITE NATIONALIST NEO NAZI’S. I KNEW THAT THE ONLY WAY I COULD EVER WIN THIS FIGHT IS IF JOE JOINED ME IN FIGHTING YOU AND YOUR EVIL.
MY FAILURE IS THAT I COULDN’T MAKE JOE UNDERSTAND OR SEE THE TRUTH, SO YOU WHITE NATIONLIAST WON.
SO YOU SEE JOHN, I WON’T BE TALKING TO YOU ABOUT WHITE NATIONALISM ANYMORE. I GIVE UP THE FIGHT.
THE ONLY WAY I WILL CONTINUE TO FIGHT IS WITH HELP. WITHOUT ANY HELP YOU WHITE NATIONALISTS WIN.. I WON’T TELL OR SHARE WITH JOE MY VAST KNOWLEGE OF THE RIGHT WING OR WHITE NATIONLAISM. EVERYDAY JOE WAITS BEFORE HE DOES THE RIGHT THING AND TALK TO ME CATHOLIC TO CATHOLIC WITH THE GOAL OF MAKING PEACE BETWEEN US, IS ANOTHER DAY THAT I AM MOVING FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY DOWN THE HIGHWAY…
I FEEL SORRY FOR JOE BECAUSE HE WAS A TERRIBLE CONGRESSMAN AND BECAUSE OF HIS ACTIONS AND LACK OF ACTION HE ALLOWED WHITE NATIONALISM TO GROW IN THIS COUNTRY. HE ALLOWED HIS PERSONAL SELFISHNESS AND PRIDE HIJACK ANY MORAL CHARACTER HE HAD. I WONDER IF IT WAS WORTH IT IN THE END, FOR HIM TO CAUSE PAIN AND SUFFERING TO PEOPLE FOR HIS PERSONAL GOALS AND REFUSE TO GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO PROVE THEY WERE THE ONES TELLING THE TRUTH AND BRING THEM MUCH NEEDED RESOURCES TO THEIR FIGHT AGAINST THE RIGHT WING AND WHITE NATIONALISM? HE IS THE ONE WHO HAS TO LIVE WITH HIMSELF THAT HE ALLOWED HIS PRIDE TO STAND IN THE WAY OF ADMITING HE WAS WRONG AND HE DIDN’T KNOW EVERYTHING THERE WAS TO KNOW ABOUT ME. THAT HE SHOULD HAVE HAD THE COURAGE TO FACE ME, SO THAT HE WOULD BECOME A BETTER MAN…I STILL BELIEVE HIM HAVING TO FACE ME CATHOLIC TO CATHOLIC WILL MAKE HIM A BETTER MAN. JOE ISN’T MY PROBLEM AS HE HAS MADE IT VERY CLEAR OUR FRIENDSHIP MEANS NOTHING TO HIM AND I DON’T WORK FOR THE MAN SO HE ISN’T MY BOSS.
Good morning. Want to start out with a song by Jackson Browne
For a dancer
I love the music of Jackson Browne as he was part of my youth. He put into music the thoughts of my heart. Music has always been very important to me because I sing and like to play instruments. He lyrics were always so poetic. He is a very talented song writer. Wish he would come out with more songs and be a voice for this time as there is so much going on in the world. Maybe someday I will get to see him in concert or even sing with him.
In Salina Steve Greene came to concert and he went to all the churches for back up singers and it was so much fun being on stage and singing in the choir in three of his songs.. It was an honor to feel good enough to actually sing with a professional musican of gospel music. That was a top moment in my life. We all have top moments in our lives and that was one of my top five moments.
For everyman
I played this song so much, I must have drove the other girls in the dorm at St Franics crazy. That is ok, as Marjorie played Jefferson Starship over and over, lol.
Last night I had a strange dream. I dreamed of J and his father. He was a little boy.. It is strange because I have been making progress of letting him go, but he is still in my dreams. I am very sensitive and have very vivid dreams and sometimes know things are happening or going to happen before they actually happen. Some people would call that a gift.
I might still be dreaming of J and his dad because he is still in my heart and I haven’t totally given up the belief in my friend that once he understands the truth, that he will step up to the plate and do the right thing and face me and talk to me Catholic to Catholic and we end things between us on a good note, as we should if we believe and want to practice our Catholic faith as we should. Seeking peace between us is the right thing for us to do as Catholics.
White Nationalists and Right Wing be warned. J is my friend and I can speak things about him that are not very nice, but heaven help you if you do. If I feel you ever are attacking him unfairly and twisting his words out of context like what happen when he made a statement about the death of a Political Leader in another Nation; I will fight to protect and defend him to the death. You know the saying you can say something about your family member that isn’t very nice but true, but no one else can.
He is my friend and we have unfinished business between us and things that need to be said. You are not in that same situation and I will go after anyone who tries and hurts my friend. I still protect and defend him as a true and loyal friend.
At the same time, I am not going to continue to be stuck in PTSD HELL.. I am moving forward and have started to open my heart to another person. I take it one day at a time. He seems to value me and my heart of GOLD and likes that I am old fashion.. He understands that I am waiting for the right man. Yet, I enjoy texting him. We haven’t even talked on the phone yet.
I am not sure if the dream is telling me not to give up on J or his dad my hero? That J does have what it takes to fight White Nationalism and all RACISM along side of me? That he does have courage?
Funny isn’t it that as I am opening up and moving forward that I am dreaming of J and his dad. I am sure my feelings will be revealed in time. I don’t give up and I will continue forward on my journey to heal from the PTSD and remove the emotional blocks that have kept me stuck for all these years and kept me from living my life.
Need to think about getting ready for mass. This choir is so different then St. Stevens. I am glad I decided to take the step and join the choir and be part of the music minstry again. My faith is coming back. It has been a very big struggle for many years.
I think the tapes that Jeff put in my head are finally being erased too.
My thoughts and prayers go to the family and friends of the police officer who died last night in Boston. I hope they catch the second person soon.
There will be changes coming soon in my life and on my blog. My life is taking a new direction. I want peace in my life and not war. I want to focus on LOVE and not HATE. I want to live life and not stuck.
There comes a time when one must decide if the battles they are fighting, though they are a moral imperative, are worth fighting because they are battles that can be won. Does the fight serve the GREATER GOOD OF MANKIND? Even if it does serve the GREATER GOOD, is it worth the TIME and EFFORT PUT INTO THE BATTLE, BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE RESOURCES AND SUPPORT TO WIN?
Those are just some of the questions I am pondering.
I am so excited and happy that I am overcoming one block of the PTSD that has kept me stuck all these years and am finally able to move forward. One block at a time. I don’t feel any anger, hate, or wish this person any ill in life. In fact I still love him as my friend, and wish him joy, love, good health and laughter. Will never give up the hope that someday we can talk and end things on a good note, but that is because I think having to face me Catholic to Catholic and we tell each other the truth and make peace as Catholics will make him a better man. I have always wanted J to be the best he could be and I still believe that deep down inside is a man who has a heart of compassion and wants to make up for the pain and suffering that people went through because of his actions. I know Pollyanna, the dreamer, who wants to see the best in all people. I walk in other people’s shoes. I try to see things from their side… That is not going to change.
It is not all J’s fault. It is not all my fault either. We are two people who for whatever reason have a problem communicating with each other. Because of the PTSD I talk in riddles and leave signs hoping that he would come and ask me about things. He didn’t understand so he never talked to me and ask me the questions that he should have to get to the truth. Maybe someday we will both gain more wisdom and understanding as we get older and gain more experience in this life. I am not stupid, but am self educated. One doesn’t have to have a fancy degree from some fancy college to be smart. One gains wisdom from living life and being born with common sense, which I have.
I can’t continue to think on what if. What if J had given me a chance to prove I was telling the truth and ask him to join my fight against White Nationalism, is not something I should continue to focus on. The reality is what it is, and I alone can’t continue to fight White Nationalism without any help or support or resources. I can live with myself because I did try to do the right thing. I am getting to the place in my life where I want to put all the White Nationalism behind me. So let us say 5 years for now or even a year from now, J decides to quit running from me and the truth and face things, I may say it is to late, that you missed the boat. It is sad, but the White Nationalists will get a free pass, because J and I can’t seem to communicate with each other.
I still have some more things to sort out, but I am making a lot of progress and I am letting go of my block, my dreams, and my friendship.
J made me feel worthless that I wasn’t worth anything, but I know that is not true. I have a heart of gold and many good qualities. I am loving and sweet and like a Celtic Muse encourage and inspire people with love to be the best they can be. It is just that J didn’t understand me, because he didn’t want to understand me. He is like the man who hides behind his newspaper so he doesn’t have to see or listen to the woman. He lives in his own world and anyone outside of that world, he doesn’t care about as they mean nothing to him. I realize that he is the one with the problem and not me, as I am and always have been open and willing to have a real conversation and friendship with him. We are at odds because of his behavior not mine. I will never let another man make me feel worthless again.
My sin in all of this is that I enabled my friend to treat me like he did and protect him all these years. To be in denial because I couldn’t face the truth that I FAILED. You see, I felt I failed because I tried and tried to bring help to the FIGHT, but I could never bring the much needed resources that J would provide. I would rather have suffered the mistreatment, abuse, and mental tortue then to ever bring dishonor to him or his family name. So I allowed him that power over me.. It has taken me many years to realize that I am not to blame for what happen.
