Love this picture so I am posting it on my journal blog.
Good things are starting to happen to me as I let go of the old that isn’t and has never been worthy of me. Out with the old and in with the new and better.
Have always gotten along better with European men than American men. Think it is because I have a British mindset more then American and I get lost in the translation. We will see what happens with the new friendship I am forming with one of my facebook friends from Europe. Unlike American men who I send my picture to and never talk to me again because I am not blonde blue eyed and pretty enough for them, this man actually likes me. Lots less judgment from European men then American men.
Take things one day at a time. I wait for the right man and don’t date just to be dating. It has been over 12 years since I have been with someone. European men respect that in a woman. American men don’t. My experience was if you didn’t put out it was being put out of the car in the middle of no where and having to call someone to pick me up. That date was a disaster. I have low self esteem thanks to American men who were really nice until they saw my picture and then being told I wasn’t pretty enough for them and that I was ugly. Great for the self esteem. European men see my picture and don’t tell me how ugly I am, but show class.
Nothing may never happen, but it felt nice that I could show my picture to a single man of 57 and not be told how I was to ugly to be with. It built up my self esteem a little bit, thinking maybe I can share my photo with someone and they won’t comment about how ugly I am because I don’t have blonde hair and blue eyes or tall and look like a model.
It will take me a long time before I will ever be able to trust a man after what Jeff did to me, but just having a friend who is European and understands the British mind is a step in the right direction. I can be myself and not have to worry if I am going to be misunderstood and misjudged by Americans who don’t understand me so they twist things around and I end up looking like the bad one.
He likes to travel and I would like to travel a lot more. There are so many places I want to see.
Someday I will get to the Scottish Highlands. Benji will love Scotland too.
I might even get to see Italy and Greece someday. They say the ocean there is so beautiful.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bpbuqh12oj4
sailing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=PSH0eRKq1lE
Scotland the brave
Gar,
I am so happy for you that your dream of moving to Scotland is coming true. you are an inspiration to me and Benji and I will make it to Skye, Scotland. On Google earth I got to see the place where my grandpa was born. It makes it very real to see the actual house in Scotland that he was born in.
Chrisy
