I was binge eating, so I decided to focus my mind on something positive adn toward my goal of moving back home.
Wow, the prices are really expensive there now.
This one is riverfront, but has 17 acres so one could have horses. It is in Ipswitch, which is nice. It still has the feel of counry I like but near water. I might be able to find a place there that one could have a horse.
I really like this one. It is 6 acres and already set up for horses. I like the house better too, as I like tradiontal and historial houses.
Still the price is way out there.
This seems nice.
I came up with three that one could have horses and still be close to water.
When I start to binge eat, I need to force myslef to think upon something else and take my mind of eating. don’t know why tonight I am binge eating. that is what they tell me to do when I start binge eating to find out what feeling I am trying to cover up and not deal with.
Usually it is when I feel hopeless like nothing good is ever going to come and what is the point of still fighting, but I don’t feel that way, so it must be a new feeling that I haven’t dealt with yet. I am sure it will take awhile to get all my feelings labeled and then released in a healthy way.
I am anxious I think, because I sent out peace feelers and am wiating for a response. That could be the feeling tonight that is trigering the binge eating;. I think it was smart to start looking at real estate and then posting in my journal. It is about finding new ways to cope with things and not allowing myself to use self destructive patterns to ruin my recovery and healing. There is a better life out there, but first I must face and conquer my demons which is what I am doing.
Well, It is close to 9:00 pm here in the Valley of the sun.
Nothing good on tv.
So will listen to some tunes.
go the distance
I can go the distance. Just have to keep working at it one inch at a time.