Just finishing lunch, been working on getting my room back together working on unpacking the second suitcase of the day. Got my Irish Belick vase back where it belongs. My dad got that for me. He knew I loved Irish belick. It has green shamrocks painted on it. I love that pattern.
On my facebook I have an Irish Jewelery store and they had a shamrock necklice today that was really pretty. I posted they would go with my small shamrock ear-rings. Someday if I ever am in a position I would love to design a matching ear-rings, necklace and braclet set. Have Emerals for the Green and then lined on the outside with dimonds. I love to take Celtic inspiration and design jewlery with it.
Ben E King-Stand by me
I love this song. Classic love song of the 60′s
The Del Vikings- Come Go With Me.
These songs remind me of Playa Del Rey. My sister had the record to Come Go with me, and when I inherited it I played it all the time.
I am trying to think of the happy parts of my childhood and that is Playa Del Rey and Westport Beach Club and sailing. Everything seemed perfect in California in the early 60′s. It truly was a great place to be born and live. It no longer is there anymore. Sand dunes taking over the empty streets and the light polls I am sure are all gone now too. LAX condemned our part of Play Del Rey in 66 so I am sure it is back to sand dunes now, but even though they condmenmed it in 66 it took them awhile before they got all the people out as people fought to stay.
Still if you count from early 70′s it must have gone back to snad dunes with no trace of people once living having lives there.
Beach Boys- Good Vibrations
Got to play a few Beach Boys as they were part of the Southern California scene in the 60′s.
Fun, Fun, Fun
Don’t Worry Baby
Little Surfer Girl
Last one. Wish it were better quality.
Well I hope everyone is having a good day.
This is my Summer of Healing. I need to work through all my feelings that I have because of the ptsd. I know anger is a biggie for me. The lady said yesterday that it is a normal reaction that children feel that have been through what I have been through. I am not crazy, nor to I lie, nor am I depressed. I am angry and that is a difference.
I am looking forward to starting the first class called coping. That will be a big help and they say prepare you to really dig deep in your emotions. I told them I binge eat, so during this process I may have periods of wanting to binge eat to numb the pain, but that doesn’t work so well, so I need to force myself to feel and let go of those feelings instead of stuffing them down with food so as to not deal with it and put a smile on my face and pretend that everything in this family relationship is good.
Just finished unpacking another suitcase, so now I can feel the pain in my back, neck and shoulder so will take another rest. I would rather learn to live with the pain then ever allow myself to be put on those pain pills again. They suck the life out of you. I would rather have a clear mind and be in pain then no pain and a drug addict.
The Medical system is this country sucks. It really does.
I will end my journal with this song.
Rolling Stones- Start me up
Love and Blessings