I actually managed to sleep better last night then I have for awhile.
Last night I was wanting to binge eat as food was my frist drug of choice to numbe the pain of ptsd. I am learning to look at what I am feeling inside. Last night it was fear of success and wanting to self destruct. OSo I am nipping that in the bud. I will not allow my inner child to stop my dreams from coing true of healthy mind, body,and spirit, so I can fulfill the destiny God broguth me into the world for.
Today I am grateful to be clean and for the insight of why I was starting to binge eat. We all have demons and we all have baggage that we need to work on. I will help you with yours and ask that you help me with mine. That is what friends do.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0nc-hh9viQ&feature=related
This one is playing on my fav. radio station now, so i thought I would play here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqyIaNWP0T0
Someday I hope the right Catholic man will come into my life. I would like to start learning about that stage of life. Non Catholics wil lnever understand my feelings of waiting until the right man God has chosen for me as my gift to him. He is the only one I want teaching me about love. Somewhere out there is a man who is Catholic and see me as the rare jewel I am and value me. I don’t know who he is or where he is, but God knows.
