I have offical Scottish Birth certicate and my dad’s generation trying them and mine generation tying me to Scottish Subjects;. I cry because even though I fought so hard not to let them kill me, I fear they will stop me from going to the UK where there is life for me. To keep me from knowing the happy love and marriage that she gets, while I get to be their slave to abuse. Why don’t I get to have nice things. I have so much good qualities I would make a good loving helpmate, best friend and wife. I only give and know how to love. Yet, they keep me with my mom who is killing me with her abuse.
I fight so hard to get free from their chains only feeling like to night they are winning, and they would keep me here in heall another night. Why did God bring me into the world if it is only to know abuse and no living a happy hape and getting to do things like travel, have a man who loves me as much as Micahael loves Susan. I chose my man, the one my dad chose for me, and they I feel don’t like my choice. So they clipped another chain to my feet.
I would think an offical birth cert. from Glasco Scotland and proving my dad and I are connect by birth to that person, would be enough for a British passport. Oh God, please give me a British passport and get me out of America back home to the UK. I cry because I fear I will be stopped from ever going home to Scotland, and forced to stay in America that I don’t want to live in. If God is out there, please provide me my offical British passport, so my American American family have no legal way to keep me chianed her to them. Please get me home to the UK, where I would have a chance for life.
Here I am just the caregiver who is daily abused and never gets to enjoy life away. Oh, God please bring me a miracle. Dad if you loved me please get me back to Scotland, where I would be save from their hold.
Chrisy
I am so upset I am weeping as I want out of here so bad, and I feel like all hope is gone of getting my offical British passport. I would think grandparent would be that proof. My spelling is very bad, as I am upset, I am stuck here another night. Oh, please take me HOME!!
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Oh, please get me out of this place. I want to be free from living with my mother. I know abuse has made me the strong woman I am, but haven’t I paid my dues yet, to where at 54 I can have an happy experience in life. I am a good woman and would make someone very happy and love him better then he would ever know. I have tptsd so I don’t talk much but through music and words. OH dad, if you ever loved her baby please get my British passport so they have no one chain to stop me to leave their hell.
I don’t expect life to come easy, but 54 years out of the Uk, isn’t that enough dues, to go home where I am happy there and could be? Oh, please hear my prayer and bring me my British Passport. I would make this person a very
I should be able to pick who I love, and not them. I know my heart.
Why am I denyed a chance for love like my older sister and have the wonderful life she has, and I am stuck being abused by my mother everyday.
She gets to travel and I hear all about the UK, but I never get to go, is that fair? I am the Brit not them. I think it is they know I feel I feel and like being British then American and I want to go HOME!!! OUT of my mom’s hell. MY DAD died in 85 isn’t that enough time. OH God please bring my British passport, asap.When my dad was alive he would limit the time we spent. I have ptsd now since his death. Oh Dad, please get me out of hell and back hom to the UK, ASAP.
Maybe God wants you here in the U.S. His ways are higher than ours and He knows what is best. To quote the Rolling Stones, “You can’t always get what you want, but you get what you need.” God works that way sometimes and perhaps you are receiving God’s answer to your prayers. Maybe a serious reevaluation is due.
Lee
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If that is God, then I don’t want a God who would take a woman who has the queen of hearts heart and deny her the only true love she has ever felt. When I love someone it is forever. He is my voice and I am his mind. Together we are one and do great. Seperated we are lost.
My mom has abused me my whole life. I have been here taking care of my mom in this house with her. ear after year. I am an iron lady, but we all pay our dues at some point.
Why would God force me to stay here when I am British and my home is Scotland. That is where my heart, joy, and love is. Why keep me here a prisoner chained to a house and mom, who don’t really care about my health, mind, or heart. The work I have done all these years for them would cause them so much more if they had to pay someone to deal with her in the way I have. If my dad was alive I wouldn’t have ptsd and I would still help my love become the best.
We should both have a chance to know the same kind of true, loyal and deep love. Why does she only get to have it, and would deny me, my love. What if she was denied her husband?
Last night I woke up and God had me pray my rosary and pray hard last night. There was a big battle. I hope the results are I get a ticket to the UK and some other things. Is that the way someone treats someone who they love as a half sister? I have never tried to deny her any happiness in her life. I am sweet, and I want my lover. She has hers, why does she deny me mine, and insist I live in HATE and die. I was so close to dying and I have been fighting to live.
I am going to continue on my path, so if I have to runaway 50 thousand times, one time, we might make it to scotland safe and there is nothing they could do to stop us from being together married, loved, and happy.
I am iron lady. If they want any relationship with their British sister, then we will find a fair solution, but I won’t be living here as their slave caregiver to our mother has caused me to have ptsd, because of her years of taking care of her.
I believe in a Catholic God. My lover is Catholis. My family are not Catholic.
It is 2 am and I am feeling that God is stronger then my sister or my mother. They might not like it if I at some point say fuck them and never talk to either of them again in my life time, because of their treatment of refusing me to have a chance to find a hapy life in the UK. That isn’t a true sister or mom, that is a slave master.
I hope tomorrow, my lover and I are on a one way trip to paradise. paradise to me is the UK not Hawaii. I don’t like heat I want to get out of this HELL.
That isn’t the way to treat a sister, even if she is half. I would never deny her her man. So because they don’t like my choice and my dad’s choice because it is a match made in heaven, they would sacrifice our love and let me die? No, that isn’t God either. Why did God bring me into the world? To live as a slave? I am a human being, I want a happy life home in the UK.
I hope tomorrow I will be freefalling into my lover’s arms. tired, but felt he needed my prayers so I have been fighting on that end. God has made us both stronger. Do they like watching me weep myself to night each night?
Is that what a true sister that loves you wants? I would never deny her her love and make her weep herself to sleep everynight.
last one, as I want to rest a little before the next showdown. Rush, rush to me my lover. I want you so bad. I chose you, what does my family not understand that my dad and I chose you as it is a perfect match. A fairytale ending match. Shame on them.