It is almost 5 here. Talked to a good friend who helped me understand why I sleep the way I do. It is because I was abused so badly it is the only way to process it and not go crazy. I can only sleep to music. I talk and move in my sleep. In life I am silent. In sleep I talk.
I asked why when we who were born in 58 and 64 were allowed to be born into a world where we were treated and living in hell and no wone stopped it? She said they had no child abuse laws then?Just up from my nap. I managed to get a deep sleep which is what I need.
I am like my dad. He ask a question and you tell him fuck you, then you don’t like the fuck you back. This house will be broken up now for the good of all of us. Me with my British passport and one way trip to the UK and out of hll in America and back home to the British people, are they won’t like the answer I give back to their now. I play a good pen ball.
I am 54 years old. Now, I am learning how to cleanse the hell from my life, so I can be free at last. I am a human being not some slave that is allowed all the life to be sucked out of so that I am found living passed out on the carpret. Is that love?
Yes, I am pissed, but like my dad, my anger is getting what want even if I have to continue to run away to the British Embassys all over the nation. I have my grandfather offical Scottish birthcertiate, all the legal papers to prove without any doubt I am connectedd to he man John Robert Cosser who was born in Glascow, Scotand. He as my grandfather.
Just because I happen to be born in LA does not strip my status as a British subject. If that was the case then any British subject who had a baby in another country their child would no longer be British?
I grew up Bon Jovi’s Runaway video girl. They may stop me, but I keep trying and one time I will find my escape hatch.
After my nap, for the first time I feel human. Actually ate a real lunch today and had a good deep nap, that I am just getting up from. This house will be broken up, as I won’t live here with my mother anyjore.
Family, remember how I would run away all the te in Hawaii from my mom and you haveing to come and find me on the streets of Hawaii. You know I am a runnaway girl.
Found the most wonder book about the Beateles today. I think one reason why George Harrison’s music speaks to me is we are both the same sign. I am March 5 and he was feb 25 Will post a george song in a bit. aand a few others before saying good night for the night.