I was able to get a few hours sleep, I think I might be able to get a few more tomorrow night. Each day I grow more tired. The drugs does something to your body and without them in your system you can’t sleep anyjmore without them.
Drinking my water and small fresca right, now. 6 am and woke up angry again. I am so pissed at Americans I knew in this country. Where is their courage, heart and passion. Just because a woman is quiet and doesn’t whine at you doesn’t mean she is stupid. I remember one American had the nerver to tell me I was pretty enough but not smart enough. How would he know. He didn’t he notice I had ptsd and have a problem speaking words and I write out my feelings. King George one of the greatest Kings ever had a speech problme too, which he was able to overcome. Gee if some adult in America even notice that this kid suffered from ptsd then maybe I might have been helped in childhood, then to be allowed to continue to suffer in silent.
I am a human being and not some slave, that you can treat so badly and not expect me to feel anger toward Americans.
Why did the America government under Nixion refuse to help Americans overseas when in danger and just say it isn’t my prolbem. Watch the movie missing sometime with Jack Lemmon, based on a true story. If it was your dad, don’t you think you might be a little pisssed?
Americans are idiots. And people don’t understand why my dad would teach me that it was better to be British then Amerifan when he got back to me
Why are Americans so stupid?
A kid doesn’t go to school after being raped, and no adult comes and asks why? That was America when I grew up. HELL. I just hae more courage in my little toe, then Americans have in their whole bodies, plus heart and passion. You don’t have to have school and a college degree to leave your mark in History. Just look at Flora MacDonald.
I have heart, passion, and courage. Those qualities ussed to be valied in this country, but those days are over along with the value of truth, honor, and loyality in government. That is their problem. They can fix it and I will go back to the UK. It is the British Union Jack that i put on my saling ship and not the stars and stripes.
I have very good reasons for having anger issues toward the American government under Nixion.
Maybe someday I can release them by talknng about them instead of just keeping them in and only releasing them through the written word.
Why do Americans have a hard time understanding Brits. We both speak English?
Hope to get some things accomplished today, but will be here detailing detox day 7. My friend, you have the same courage and heart, you must get off the oxycodone pills. Your family needs you to be healthy in body mind, and spirit. I know it isn’t easy, but I want you to see by this written journal, that you can make it through. You made it through the bullship of White Nationalism and you can make it through this with the same kind of spirit of saying fuck you.
That is why people like David Duke will loose in the end. They can’t brainwash us for long. That is why when I am fully recovered from the ptsd, he will not know the woman that he had unleashed against him in thepolitical world that he so dreams of conquering.
Love you always.