Still not tired, so it is going to be another long night on the computer listening to music. Clearing my thoughts. Feeling almost human, but can’t sleep. I want to do it cold turkey and get all the drugs out of my stystem. I am doing fine, by myself.
I got a nice letter from my Confirmation sister in Calif. Her daughter just graduated from 8th grade from Catholic school. I will write in a few days. We are still very close, though we don’t always talk as often as we should. As I tell when she feels guilty, that she has nothing to feel bad about my life. We are and will always have a special bond as were took confirmation class and were Confirmed at St. Christophers and Mgsr Allan. We have a very strong base, and we will always have more love and a deeper bond then other friends because we were Confirmed in the church together. I know non Catholics don’t understand what I am saying. I am not saying i love Nanette more, but in a different way because we share a confirmation togteher. She is one month older then me.
I love all friends with a true heart. Each in a different way. Like my friend in and out of White Nationalism, we are real warriors together. That is a deep love and bond too. Equal to what Nanette and I have , but in a different area of my life. We are more in touch and are working on the same goal, though in our own different ways. You and your wonderful man in your own way, and me in the polical area.
My friend in SC we have a very special love and bond, and she is Roman Catholic too. My friend in MT I will always support her in anything she decides to do in life. That is what true friends do.
Just Nanette knows me longer.
Listening to Van Morrison. I will post of later, when I finish writing my thoughts down. I love his music.
I feel like the fog is lifting from the mind though, which is a good thing, and will continue to lift from what I understand from what others who have been through this on the sober recovery forum.
Haven’t really posted in a few days, staying to my blog and just mellowing and listening to music and making it through the best I can. Later I will be able to help others get off the drugs too. One step and demon at a time.
Brown eyed girl just came on. Love that and so many of his songs.
Well, I want to listen.
Hope this journal will help other drug addicts to want to come clean and get sober and find sober and clean living. It is time to get healthy.