I am glad I feel like a human being again. Hopefully, my body is getting used to the new meds. Making Aunt Juliet’s casserole for dinner and watching the History Channel. The show is bringing up memories of my past. It is amazing how much one finds they remember. Will continue on the same path as I know it is the morally right thing to do; plus fight the thyroid growths. Don’t look forward to the surgery as I hate hospitals, but the important thing is to face it with a smile and just make the best of things.
I know some people think I am pollyanna, but over the years that is how I survived not giving up hope that the truth would be allowed to come out and the right thing done. America is a great nation because we are a moral nation. Who answers the call for help in the world? Americans. We try and help the suffering, sick, hungry, and abused of the the world. The Peace Corps helped many nations and I know one of my parents friends sons who was older than me after Davis worked in the Peace corps and he talked about the work he did. That was a long time ago, but I remember when this nation was a city of light shining hope in the world for a better tomorrow. Believe me I know the world isn’t like that anymore, as I have lived in a White Nationalist world for many years.
White Nationalists taught me that the United States is an evil empire that has been taken over by Jews. Catholics are hated too and our Pope has been called the Anti Christ. George Rockwell who many White Nationalists admire said Jews, Catholics and Negros had to go. We were blamed for the ruin of America. Though David Duke and recent White Nationalists accept Catholics and the Catholic hate that once was there is gone, because I think they realize they need White Catholics to achieve their goal of a White Homeland. I would make Jeff so angry because I could never really submit and accept his views of America as my own. He would force me to read these article and watch their media and I would ask for more proof because what I got out of the material was not what I was supposed to get out of it. I would be yelled at that I was either to stupid to understand or that I was an evil witch because rebellion is the sin of witchcraft and we burn witches. I hated when the men of the church would yell at me how evil I was and how I was going to hell and I needed to repent. Yet, what they were trying to get me to believe was so different than what Father Enzie and the nuns taught me, so I knew in my heart that I must remain true to my faith in my heart.
Everytime I went for help people would lie and make it sound like I was this evil person who is nuts in the head so that they wouldn’t listen to me. It was really hard because I knew I was telling the truth and needed help because I was suffering from PTSD.
I really love this country. I will always be grateful to the NSDAR who taught me what it means to be a woman who is a true American Patriot and that I wasn’t this weak woman but that I was a strong woman who with the blood of my ancestors would seek to do the right thing. What does a girl do when faced with love of country and taking an oath as a Daughter of the American Revolution in our meetings to protect his nation from all enemies foreign and domestic and hearing a friend talk about actions that as a Political Daughter I feel are treason. Do I be loyal to my Country and my oath as a Daughter or do I be a loyal friend? I chose my country and my oath. God, country, and family is the motto of my life. Country sometimes must come before family. I know some friends might not understand, but that is the way it has to be.
I am starting to see faces of people I know now on this show on the History channel. I see the woman and children and I want to cry. Trapped in a poison playground and they don’t realize just how different the real world is out there. Women are not looked at as breeders whose only duty is to bear White Babies to save the White race. I am not saying it isn’t wonderful to be a mother and I am a traditonal Catholic women, but I know that women should not be denied a good education because she is a woman or if she wants a career made to feel like a traitor to the white race because she wants to work outside the house. White Nationalist women are living a lie.
One day they too may wake up as I did and other women are doing. Something triggers us and we begin to start seeing the truth about White Nationalism. I want to let you know that I am here if you need a friend and want to leave White Nationalism. Life does get better, but you must take the first step. Do you really want your children being raised in an environment that truly believes the Adolt Hitler is a hero to the White race? I know White Nationalists deny that they don’t admire and hold out Hitler as their hero. They hold out Thomas Jefferson and the American flag, but yet, who do they honor on April 20? That is why they use the 14/88 as symbol that outsiders would not know. As always with White Nationalism I found that the actions they took did not measure up to the words they spoke. Look at their actions and you will find that White Nationalists tend to hold Hitler as someone they admire.
White Nationalism is no joke!!!! The United States needs to start acting smart and stop being stupid. We have made mistakes. We need to be honest with ourselves, face the truth, rethink, regroup and start fighting the enemy of this nation both foreign and domestic who is out for our destruction as a country. I am trying to do the right thing and get the truth out there and hopefully like Huey Long can get people angry about what is happening and start fighting the battle that must be fought if we are going to save this nation.
White Nationalists are not stupid and they are gaining in power. They have powerful friends in foreign countries who share their common goal about Israel and the United States. Many in White Nationalism feel that the enemy of my enemy is my friend. Iran is a threat to us and the joining together of American White Nationalists and Iran is not a good thing for the future of this nation. Yet, it seems that no one else seems to be worried about this joining together of two enemies of this government.
Yes, I might die, but we all die someday. For me it is more important to die doing the morally right thing then to submit to White Nationalist rule in America. I worry about the future of this country because I think that the lies have been stronger than the truth for years and that the truth will never be allowed to come out. Sure life would have been easier for me if I had just submitted to Jeff and his CI/WN but that is not the morally right thing to do, and I do try to be a good American and Catholic. I had a solid foundation and knew the lies from the truth. I am sure I have a lot of mixed up info, but I can see through the lies better than some people.
I am going to continue to believe that everything will work out in the end and that someday people will understand me and finally realize that I am just trying to do the right thing the best I can with my very limited resources at this point. I need help with some research as I don’t have the resources to answer the next question in the puzzle.
Well, I need to go and get back to cooking dinner.
I hope everyone has a nice weekend.
Chrisy
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