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Sometimes it is hard to keep believing that we can work out problems with friends.  Sometimes we just have to hold on to that hope that we will be able to talk things out and forgive each other and move forward in life.  I think we all have regrets for the way we have treated someone in our lives.

I know I have friends that I haven’t spoken to in over 20 years but I am and have always been willing to talk things out and look into each others eyes and tell the truth and hopefully move forward in life.  I am still seeking to do the right thing and will always be willing to talk things out.  The friendship is still there at least on my side.  If they were drowning and needed help I would still throw them the lifeline.

I know people think I am crazy for holding on to this friendship for so long, but I am just the kind of person that once someone becomes my friend they are always my friend.  I don’t turn friendship off and on like you would a light switch.

I remember the good times and the wonderful smile that this person has. 

My friend had the most wonderful gift given to her on Sunday when people who she has been friends with and got into a misunderstanding with talked to her and the gate of communication was given.  Other people might not understand her joy in having that friendship restored, but I do because I have a friendship that I would like to be able to talk to honestly as two Catholics while we look in each others eyes.  It is tough to let go of something that you don’t know what you did.  I think we all need closure on some things that have happen in our life.  My friend is finally going to have peace of mind because they are at least talking to each other now.  I am happy that they will have that chance to talk things out.  That does give me hope that someday I too will have peace of mind and closure to my questions.  I don’t know what I did to be treated the way I was. 

Yet, if my friend was given that great gift, than maybe God will bring me that great gift too.  It is Christmas time again and what better time for peace and forgiveness.  I forgave him a long time ago, and maybe this Christmas my friend will forgive me and we can talk things through.  He is my Catholic brother so I will keep praying that we will be able to forgive each other as two Catholics and be honest with each other.  We must never be afraid of the truth.

Maybe someday he will realize I was and still am a true friend.  I wish him the best.  I wish for him happiness and all the good blessings in life (love, peace, joy, prosperity, good health etc).

I won’t give up hope that maybe this Christmas that we will finally talk after all these years and I will finally understand why things happen the way they did. 

I just want to wish this person a very Merry Christmas and a very  happy 2010.  Be happy!!!  May you know peace, love, good health, loyality and true friendship.  I pray that you will not be afraid to seek the truth and that you will not be so judgemental of people.  Sometimes one has to dig deep for the truth.  You need to find out why someone does the things they do.  What is their heart?  Don’t listen to rumors but take the time to ask the person yourself the questions that you want answered while looking in their eyes.  The eyes are the soul of a person and I know I can’t look into someone’s eyes and lie to them.  I have never lied to you.  I would never look you in the eyes and lie to you.

I will always be here for you my friend.  I have always defended you and will continue to defend you.  I just wish that you would have believed in me the way I continue to believe in you.  I see the good inside of you.  I know deep down inside you are a wonderful person.  I just wished you believed in yourself more. 

Merry Christmas and happy 2010.

Christine