Free to be ourself
All my life I have always been different than most people. I have always marched to my own drummer. Maybe it is because of the disabilities I was born with that made me different and all my life I have been trying to fit in and be accepted by peers.
I was the kid no one wanted on their sports team in school as I have very little balance and cordnation. Though I was good at riding horses and when I did play on a soccer team I was voted most improved player because I had improved from the first day to the last day. I worked very hard.Sometimes kids can be cruel to the kid that is different.
I think we all want to be accepted and liked. Who wants to be the one who is different from everyone else?
I think I am finally learning that if I am to truly find peace and happiness in this life that I have to accept that it is ok for me to be different. That it is ok for me to look at the issues from all side and make up my own mind and not feel bad because I come to a different conclusion than someone else. I need to accept that it is ok to not fit into any preconceived mode of what we need to be as Progressives. It is ok if I am a moderate Progressive.
I am a Progressive because I believe in being a good caregiver of the planet we live on. Progressives have a much better record on the environment and I am going to stay a member of the Green Party. I don’t care if because I am a Pro life Catholic that other Progressives think that having a strong Catholic faith and trying to live by the teachings of the church is grounds to be drummed out of being Progressive. If I have to choose between a political view and being a good Catholic my faith comes first.
I am a Progressive because I believe in social programs for the poor, sick, elderly, and young etc. Progressives have a better record on helping the poor in this country than Conservatives. I don’t care if because I am standing by the teachings of the Catholic church on gay marriage that other Progressives think I am an evil racist or that my church is racist.
I post on another site and I got really angry because my chruch was attacked. Other Progressives can’t understand why I would get upset over the Catholic church being attacked as they were? I would hope that Catholics can understand my feelings.
The Catholic church is not pefect!!!!! WE have made many mistakes as has every other church, organization, people in this life. Yet, the Catholic church does a lot of good in this world feeding the poor, taking care of the sick and helping people that other Progressives only talk about but never do in real life. Yet those same Progressives who attack Catholics make excuses for people who they consider Progressive when they condemn that same action in Catholics and Republicans.
I am not a Conservative or Republican because even though I agree with them on abortion and gay marriage, I don’t like their record for the environment and the lack of concern for the working man and woman who is trying just to survive in this economy.
So once again I am different and am having a hard time finding a place for me. Sometimes I think I will never be accepted by Progressives and what is the point of even trying? Other times I feel that it is important for me to not give up trying to find some fellowship with other Progressives.
I may not agree with White Nationalists, but I will say they are in some ways better people inside. Less judgment and more true friendship returned than the harsh judgment, talking about people instead of talking to them, and being so arrogant that they think anyone who doesn’t walk lockstep with them is an evil racist. What makes that kind of progressive any different than the extreem White Nationalist who hates someone because of the color of their skin, or because they are Jewish? Both are spewing hate in their heart and justifying that hate because they think they are the only ones who are right and anyone else who disagrees with them is wrong. Who think it is ok to gloat when someone else who disagrees with you is going through hard times because after all they aren’t just like you so they deserve it. Or painting the other side with a paint brush that is not exactly true.
I think I am going to start calling myself a moderate Progressive. Maybe there is no one else who fits into the moderate Progressive camp. Maybe I will start something new. I am good at that.
I am finally learning that it is ok to be myself. I am finally learning that I don’t have to have the last word and that I can walk away and not waste my time fighting with people who will never understand or really listen because they are to busy thinking they are right and talking about or at people. It is a waste of time to continue on the same path. I think I will post my thoughts and that is it. I am going to allow myself the right to be free and to be myself.
